A Part Of The Family

Chapter 16: All To Much

"Singer/Song write, Ellie Davison attempted suicied, earlier this after noon. We have been told that she has cut her wrists, consumed alcohol and over dosed on pills. We are currently be-" I cut the tv off, not wanting to hear anymore. Ellie lay beside me in the hospital as we waited for her to wake up. Ryan, Drake, Wayne and me are the only ones in her room. I don't even think her parents know. Even though I know I shouldn't blame myself, I do. I could have been much less hash on her, then maybe she won't be this way.

"Nic, don't blame yourself," Ryan told me as he wiped away my tears. "It wasn't your fault, ok?" He tried to persuade me it wasn't my fault, but I wasn't taking it.

"Yes it was, if I hadn't been so harsh with her she wouldn't be here right now," I cried into his chest as he rubbed my back.

"Don't say that," He told me.

"It's true," I sniffed.

"No...it's not true," He replied as he kissed the top of my head. "I called my parents and they'll be here in about 5 minutes," He informed me.

"Ok," I sniffed as I rested my head on his chest.

"Come on, lets sit down," Ryan led me over to the couch and sat down, pulling me onto his lap. He wrapped his arms around me as I did the same. I rested my head on his chest again as I played with the hem of his t-shirt. "What you doing about your meetings?" He asked as the room fell silent.

"I don't know," I replied lowly. My meetings were pretty important, but I need to stay here with Ellie. I guess I could just move it to tomo-.

"Nic," My thoughts were interrupted by Drake calling my name.

"Huh,"

"Your phones ringing," He told me as he passed me my phone.

"Thanks," I grabbed my phone and answered. "Hello?"

"Hi Nicki," Manny greeted.

"Hey Manny,"

"Do you think you'll be going to your meetings?" He asked.

"Um...can we move it?" I asked.

"Let me just check, one second," The line went silent as he put me on hold. I waited as he checked and he came back after a minute.

"Nicki?"

"Yer?"

"They said you can move it to sometime this week or next week," He informed me.

"Ok, um...next week on...Wednesday?" I replied.

"Let me just see," Once again he put me on hold and returned a minute later. "They said 2pm, is that ok?"

"Yer, that's fine," I replied as I made a mental note to put that in my planner.

"Good, now the one for your clothing line can be moved to Tuesday at 6pm?"

"Yer, that's fine too,"

"Good, that's all,"

"Ok, thanks Manny, bye,"

"Bye Nic," He replied before I hung up.

"That about you meetings," Ryan asked and I replied with a nod. "Alright," He kissed my temple as I resumed playing with the hem of his t-shirt.

A couple minutes later, Ellie's and Ryan's parents came strolling through the door. Sarah, their mum, looked toward Ellie before turning to me.

"What happen?" She asked me as Dan, their dad, walked toward Ellie's bed.

"She um...she failed t-to commit s-suicide," I stuttered as I fought back my tears.

"What? Why?" I shrugged as I wiped my eyes.