A Part Of The Family

Chapter 11: Only For You

We drove down the mud track in silence, nothing but the mud crumbling under the car tiers could be heard. The further down the track we, the more Ryan's car came into view. I stopped the car just behind Ryan's, without almost crashing into it and got out.

"I think its best you two stay here and let me go talk to him alone" I told the as I held the car door open.

"Ok, but if you haven't come back in 2 hours we're going to come find you" Drake warned me.

"Fine" I said as I shut the car door. I turned away from the car and walked through the trees, trying to remember how to get to the run down house. Here I am again, in the forest, in slippers, just great. I sighed as I walked further into the forest. Slowly, the run down house came into view and I saw Ryan inside, unbuckleing his jeans. "Oh no" I broke into a run and got to him just as he was about to cut his thigh. "Please don't" I said catching my breath. He just ignored me, wiped away his tears and cut deep into his thigh. The blood poured out onto the mattress. "No!" I screamed. "Don't do this to your self!" I told him as I tried to grab the blade. He pushed even harder into his skin and I could see his knuckles turning white. "Please don't do this...I-I-I love you" I cried.

"No you don't, no one loves me" He told me trying to convince him self.

"You're wrong...a lot of people love you...e-especially me" I cried as I sat down beside him, not caring about the blood getting on my new Adidas trackies. "Please don't do this...you're hurting more than yourself...you're hurting me the most...just watching you hurt your self...being unable to help you" I said through my tears. I could see the colour come back to his knuckles, but he still kept cutting. "Please" I begged him. He kept cutting, but this time just under the one he had done. There is probably only one way to make him stop. I saw another blade on the floor. It was old and had rust on it, probably the one from before. I picked it, careful not to cut my fingers again. I stood up and took my trackies off, leaving me in just a t-shirt and thong. I sat back down beside him and pressed the blade against the top of my thigh. The pain was horrible, but that didn't stop me. I pressed harder into my skin, until I saw blood. I slowly dragged it across my thigh, causing me to be in a lot of pain. I bit my lip to stop me from crying out. I could barely see anything through my tear filled eyes. I blink and they fell to my bleeding thigh. I felt a hand grip my an I instantly knew it was Ryan. He peeled open my hand and through away the blade I had.

"I-I'm sorry, I love you" He cried. I looked at my bleeding thigh, realizing how deep I had cut. I looked over to Ryan and saw him slowly cutting across his wrist. "No! Please don't!" I cried as I grabbed the blade of him, before he could cut his vein and bleed to death.

"Why won't you let me just die?" I asked, hi voice full of pain.

"Because I love you" I told him. "Your family and your friends love you" I continued through my tears.

"No you don't..." He whispered.

"Yes I do, I would never cut for anyone...but I did for you" I whispered back. He moved up the bed and laid down, with his back facing me. I laid down beside him. "Please...I love you" I wrapped my arms around his waist and rest my head on his back, drenching his t-shirt with my tears. He turned over in my arms and pulled me closer, crying into the crook of my neck.

"I'm sorry...I had to" His voice was muffled from it being buried in the crook of my neck, but I still heard him.

"You didn't have to...you felt like you had to" I told him.

"Do you love me?" He asked sounding a little confused.

"Y-yes, I do" I replied truthfully.

"Like in love?" I nodded softly. I pulled him away and looked into his eyes.

"I love you with all my heart" I spoke from my heart. I brought my face closer to his and plated my lips on his. I could tell by the way he kissed me that he loved me. I gently held his face and deepened the kiss. I pulled away and looked into his eyes again. The pain was now filled with love. "I love you" I whispered.

"I love you too" He whispered back. A smile crept across our faces the more we thought about what had just happened. "So are we like...together" He asked sounding he wiped away my tears. I nodded with a big smile across my face. He pulled me into a hug and squeezed me tight. I could hear him crying, which made me cry as well. "I'm so sorry for what I put you through" He cried into my chest. "I feel like such a horrible person" He admitted.

"But your not, you're anything but horrible" I cried whilst I held his head. We said no more and just laid there crying. Once our tears had stopped falling and our cries had silenced, we decided we should go back home. I pulled away from Ryan and looked down towards my thigh, which had now stopped bleeding. It sickens me to know I cut my self, but at least it was for a good enough reason. I sighed and stood up, grabbing my trackies as I did so. Ryan put his jeans back on as I put my trackies back on. Just as I was walking through the entrance, Ryan turned back and picked up the blades. Once we exited the house, he grabbed my hand and stopped. He passed me a blade and I knew instantly what we were doing. He intertwined his fingers with mine and we through the blades as far away as we could. I almost felt as if I was throwing away a bad memory, which hopefully I was. He turned and looked down at me as I looked up at him. He brought his face down to mine and softly kissed my lips.

"I love you" He whispered, barely moving his lips.

"I love you too"I whispered back. He cupped my cheek and kissed my forehead, causing my to blush.

"We should get going" He told me as his hand left my face.

"Yer" We turned and made our way back through the forest to our cars. "Do you want me to come in your car?" I asked him as we were almost back at the cars.

"I'd love it" He smiled at me before kissed the back of my hand he was holding. Once we got to the cars, Ryan went to his an I went to go tell Drake to drive my car back.

"Drake" I said shaking him from his sleep.

"Uh...your back?" Drake said as he woke up.

"Yer, could you drive my car back please?" I asked him.

"Yer, you get Ryan?"

"Yer, I'm driving him back to my house"

"Alright"

"Thanks" I said before turning away and getting in to Ryan's car.