Our Journey (J&D)

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JAYDA

I watched as they lowered the casket into the ground. I watched my pride and joy, my life enter the ground. 6 feet where I couldn't touch her anymore. This was it. She was really gone, I threw a white rose onto her casket. A tear fell down my cheek even though the ceremony wasn't quite done with I was done. I said my final goodbye to my mom and walked away. All eyes were on me but I didn't care. The tears came faster and faster as I walked out of the crowd and towards the limo that carried all of my family members. I patiently waited for the ceremony to be over. As I waited I fell asleep and later that day I woke up in my room.

ONE WEEK LATER

I haven't been to school since my mom died, I haven't spoken to anyone either. Major comes and tries to speak to me but I won't speak so he'll eventually leave and come back the next day to try again. My bestfriend Hope does the same thing. Today was Tuesday and the day was practically over so I made up my mind that I wasn't gonna go to school since I'm probably failing my classes. I was getting hungry and there was a corner store down the street. It was getting dark quick since the time was changing so I put on some sweats and a big white tee. My hair was looking like what the fuck but I didn't care.

I walked into the corner store and instantly went to the chips isle. I got my favorite chips: hot fries and Doritos with more junk. I got some candy, two pickled eggs and two hot sausages and something to drink and proceeded to the register. The man looked at me funny and I laughed, my body was a bit small so most people would think that I don't eat a lot but I CAN EAT! After paying I walked out the corner store and ran into somebody's hard chest.

I fell on my ass. How embarrassing I thought to myself. "My bad, I'm sorry I didn't see you." the deep voice said. I looked up and seen it was this boy i knew from school. We had a few classes together but we never really spoke."Its..Its okay, I should of been looking" I said. Man this boy was cute as hell. He was about 6'0, dark skin, braces, his cheeks are so chubby. He extended his hand, I looked at it for a minute and hesitated but grabbed it anyways."Your name is Jayda,right?" he asked. Yeah I said nonchalantly.."Deondre?" I knew his name but I wanted to sound clueless like him. I had to remind myself who I was and what I was doing. I don't want any relations or anything to do with boys, not now especially since momma ain't here anymore. I started tearing up just thinking about her.. "Look I gotta go, sorry and thanks for helping me. See you at school.," I said quickly. I turned around and started walking fast.

He was calling my name but I didn't care the tears started falling and I was honestly tired of crying.. But I missed my momma. Maybe Deondre isn't bad.. Maybe I can use him to get my mind off ma. But at the same time I wouldn't wanna get myself in mess.

What to do?