Saranghaeyo, Noona!

Chapter 15

Face Time ringing....

Phew! It's okay, Sam.  No need to be nervous.  It's just Mark.

I slowly pressed the accept button

"Hey!" I said and forced a smile

"Hi! Am I disturbing you?" Mark asked

"No, it's okay.  I'm not yet sleepy anyway.  So, why'd you call?"

"Well... About the talk we had awhile ago... Well, I just want to clarify it." Mark said awkwardly

"Clarify what?" I asked

"Well, you know... about me and Yerin.  You thought... I like her?"

"Yeah.  Don't you?"

"Well, yeah, I like her, but only as a younger sister."

"Okay."

"That's it?" Mark asked

"Yeah"

"Is there something bothering you? Are you mad at me?"

"Nothing.  Why would you think that I'm mad at you?"

"You seems different."

"It's just your imagination Mark!" I just laughed

For a moment, he didn't say anything, he just stared at me.  And it makes me feel more awkward. 

The truth is, I'm itching to ask him questions.  Why is he so nice to me? Why he always makes time to call me? Why he's doing all these things to me? I want to ask him, do you like me?

Too many questions, but I'm too coward to ask.  Because I'm also scared of what his answer would be.  What if he tells me, no? That would be one big embarrassment for me. He'll think I'm delusional.  And it might break the friendship we have. But what if he tells me, yes? I don't know if I can accept his feelings for me.  There are just too many complications.  Him being an idol, and him being younger than me.  Coz before, I made a vow with myself , to never ever fall for a younger man again.  Having a relationship again with a younger man is a big no-no on my list. 

"Hey! Who's that you're talking to, huh?" Jackson suddenly appeared on the screen.  "Oh! Annyeong haseyo, noona!"

"Annyeonghaseyo, Jackson!" I smiled at him

"Noona, you're coming to our fanmeeting there, right?" Jackson asked

"I'll think about it.  When is it again?"

"Wah! Jinjja? You really don't know, noona?" Jackson said wide eyed.  Then acting hurt.

I laughed. "I'm just joking! Of course, I'm going!  I already bought our tickets.  I won't miss it for the world."

"Yes! And noona... don't forget your promise okay?" Jackson added

"What promise?" I asked

"You said you're going to personally prepare a drink for us.  I'm really looking forward to that, you know. Jinjja!"

"Oh! That one. Of course! If you really want to. But are you sure your schedule will allow it? I'm sure you'll be very busy." I smiled.  I looked at Mark, he's still staring at me with that serious expression. And it makes me feel nervous, like there's a churning in the pit of my stomach.  So I immediately avoided his gaze.