Save me from myself

Dreams

Cassia's POV He was there. Stood in front of me. As perfect as ever. I walked towards him smiling, I couldn't wait to hold him in my arms once again. But as I got closer he moved away. I frowned to myself. Why is he getting further away? I started to run. He just got further away until I could no longer see him. He was gone. I was alone in the darkness. I span around panicked. I couldn't see anything! I started having a panic attack. I couldn't breathe! I closed my eyes as I fell to the floor. I guess I'm finally dead. Ky's POV I watched Cassia as she 'slept'. Her face looked so peaceful, the pain in her eyes was gone, she looked so young, so innocent. I sighed and put my head in my hands. She's too beautiful to have to go through this pain. Beautiful girl, beautiful soul. She was so perfect yet society made up flaws about her and pushed her too far. Now she was broken. She doesn't deserve it. But I do. I'm an outcast. I don't belong here. I belong six feet under. I looked back up at Cassia, her face was crinkled up in pain and she was gasping for air. What do I do?! I stared panicked at her for a few seconds. Then she stopped breathing. She stopped moving and my whole world froze. In seconds I had my mouth on hers resuscitating her. I pumped at her heart with my hands, desperately trying to get it to work again. After a few moments of blind panic she came back to life. I breathed a deep sigh of relief. Thank god, I thought I had lost her. I sat down next to her, breathless. I was so tired but I couldn't sleep. What if it happened again while I was sleeping? What if she died while I wasn't paying attention? I wouldn't be able to live with myself. ---------------------- I opened my eyes to the sound of somebody whispering in my ear to wake up. I sat up startled and looked around to see Cassia grinning at me. I guess I had fallen asleep. I let out a huge sigh of relief. She was alive! I wrapped my arms around her and whispered in her ear "Don't ever scare me like that again. Do you hear me? Never". She nodded her head in response. "Thank you for saving me" she whisper back. "Anytime" I replied smiling. She pulled away and stared at me with those emerald green eyes of hers that reminded me of the forest where I used to live. "I never did find out your name" she said. "Ky, Ky Jackson" I told her. "Cassia Brown" she replied. We just sat and looked at each other for a moment before she jumped up saying "We better get the blood cleared up before Jack gets home." I pretended to not hear the bitterness in her voice as she said 'Jack' and stood up to help her. Ten minutes later we had finished. It was lucky she had laminated flooring, we would never have gotten the blood out of carpet. We changed the sheets and sat on the bed next to each other. "Tell me a bit about you" she said. "Alright" I replied. "My full name is Ky Xander Jackson, I'm 15 years old and my birthday is 30th June. I'm an only child, my mum is dead and I live with my alcoholic dad" I looked over at her, "you?" I asked. She closed her eyes as she began speaking. "My full name is Cassia Emerald Brown. I'm 14 and my birthday is in two days, 4th June. I have one brother- who I live with along with my step-dad. Both my parents and older sister died 7 years ago. My middle name is Emerald because when I was born I had green eyes. Not blue." She opened her eyes again and I saw the pain flicker away as quickly as it came. I grabbed her hand tight and let her rest her head on my shoulder. We just sat in silence. It wasn't uncomfortable, it was peaceful. But then the door slammed shut and Cassia tensed before jumping up and pushing me into her wardrobe. "Stay in there and stay quiet" she hissed before closing the door and walking out of her room.

Cassia's POV
I walked slowly down the stairs looking at the floor. I stopped at the bottom and stood in front the person. "Hey Cassie, don't worry it's me not Jack" I looked up into my brothers caring eyes and smiled. I wrapped my arms tightly around him and mumbled "I missed you" into his chest. "I missed you too Cassie, I'm missed you too" he replied softly. He took my hand and led me into the living room. He sat me down and looked me in the eye. "Cassia" he said, looking at me worriedly, "I heard you were at the hospital again while I was gone. I also heard that it wasn't because of Jack" I looked down ashamed. Of course my suicide attempt wouldn't get passed my brother. "I thought you were getting better" he said softly. "I'm sorry" I mumbled in reply. He sighed "It's okay Cassia, just promise me you won't try again" I crossed my fingers behind my back. "I promise" I replied honestly. It was so easy to lie to my brother. He was so gullible for a 17 year old. Just at that moment the door slammed again. Jack was home. I gulped and raced to the kitchen to start making dinner. Jack will be angry that I've only just started. "Where's the bitch?" I heard Jack growl at Austin- my brother. "She better have my dinner ready by the time I get into the kitchen". "Leave her alone" Austin hissed. I heard the impact of flesh as Jack punched Austin. I gulped again. I shoved some pasta into the microwave and heated up some sauce. Austin had gained me some time but not much. The microwave beeped at me and I hurried to get the food on the plate. I dashed over to the cooker and poured the sauce over the pasta. I grabbed a knife and fork and let out a sigh of relief as Jack walked into the kitchen. Just in time. I handed him his dinner and left to go back upstairs. But not with our a warning about what would happen if there was something wrong with his dinner from Jack. I ran up the stairs, wanting to get back to Ky. I didn't want him to come downstairs. I opened the door to my room to find Ky sat on my bed. Playing with my blades. I stopped dead in my tracks. I thought if hidden them again without Ky seeing when we were clearing up. I had about sixteen blades. My favourite one had a small red mark. It was stained with my blood. He looked up at me with pain in his eyes. "Promise me you'll stop Cassia. You scared me to death when you nearly died today". He said. "Shhhh! And don't be a hypocrite. I've seen your scars too" I whispered. He sighed. "But you see Cassia. You don't deserve to have your soul taken away by a lifeless piece of metal. But I do" he replied. That last bit broke my heart. He truly thinks he deserves this. He deserves love and happiness. He deserves better than me. Throughout all of this pain, his heart is still gold where mine has turned black. "Ky," I said softly, "You don't deserve it. None of it." He just rolled his eyes in response. I sat down next to him. "I'm sorry but you have to go now. I can't risk you being caught by Jack. He would kill you" I said unwillingly. I didn't want him to go but I knew that he had to go so I could protect him. He nodded. "I understand" he said quietly. "Climb out my window, there's a tree you can climb down" I whispered. He nodded and walked over to the window. He opened it up, and with one last fleeting smile over his shoulder, he was gone into the night.