Finding Jack||j.g

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Scarlett

Have you ever loved someone so bad, that you find yourself crying. Crying from the pain that love brings. Have you ever loved someone so much you really don't know what to do because your life revolves around their perfection. Their beauty makes you and the angles above, the ones who protect us from evil, cry.

Love

Love love love, that's all I have for you. Love love love, that's all I want to give you.

That's what I ever wanted to give you.

Please please please, be with me. Please please please, don't leave me. Please stay.

Their love is the only thing you want, that's the only thing you crave. The only thing you hunger for. 

Love

They think I'm insane, they think my love for you is insane. But that's the beauty of my love for you. There's so much and right now it's hitting me like bricks.

Love

I'm sorry I broke your heart, I'm sorry I caused you pain. But now my heart hurts. It hurts so bad because I know I had a chance. A chance to have it all. The chance to have the world. The chance to have you.

You

But your slipping away, and I don't know how much longer I can keep holding on. The harder I tug, you tug harder.

Did I cause you that much pain?

To just push away from me when I try to pull.

I want you here. I want you with me. I want you.

But where are you?

Where are you Jack?

When did I lose it all?

Please answer me.

Please give me answers.

Because you are the reason for these teardrops that keep hitting the floor.

Your the reason for my heart aches.

For my dizziness.

For my pain.

For my love.

Because I love you.

I love you with great force.

I can't keep acting like I don't care. I can't keep acting that I don't love you. That I don't crave you. That I don't feel pain from your absence.

I can't keep acting like everything's okay.

It's like I'm talking to myself, no one there to listen to my words of pain.

And I know you can't hear me anymore.

There's so much to say.

My mind is going crazy.

My demons are taunting me.

My head is pounding with words that I should've said.

I have so much to say, so so much to say. And most of it is my love for you. My regrets. My feelings. 

But I lost it.

I lost my chance.

My time is up.

But what do you do when you keep hoping for something you know you lost?

Give up?

I don't want to give up. I don't want to give up on something I wanted from the start. I don't want to give up. I know I have given up on things in the past.

But you?

No.

Never!

Because even though I'm with someone that is not you, I wish they were.

I wish they can be you.

But that's wrong.

Because he can never be you. And you can't be him.

But my love for him would be the same.

But my love for you would be different.

Because you are the different that I crave for.

The different that I hunger. The different love I have for you will be greater than anything in this whole world.

In this whole planet.

In this whole universe.

And I only wished you knew that.

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Thoughts?
Almost coming to a end😁🙃