DL×My Oc✨CRACK

Self-Esteem Killer

I rubbed my hands together. Which one should I start first. I saw the pile of magazines and I smirked. I walked towards it, taking out my marker from my pocket.

On the top, there was a picture of a naked girl. She was only covered with a small pink blanket. She was giving that 'innocent girl' look.

"Innocent and feisty? " I mumbled as I read the words out. I flipped through the pages. There were pictures after pictures of naked girls. Some were covering their chests with their hands while the others were having their back arched. I shuddered.

This is...disturbing. A page soon caught my attention. 'Bigger Boobs, Bigger Chances'. The page explained how guys should aim for women with bigger chests. The page had pictures of chest naked women giving a seductive grin.

I couldn't help but to look down at my chest. So, if I don't have D cup Boobs, I will be Forever Alone?

It was like those moments when you watch a Victoria Secret Show and you end up going on a strict diet and going to the gym for 2 weeks. Horrible.

I looked at the other magazines. Each of the magazines included girls with big busts. I could feel my self-esteem falling with every single picture I see.

I soon forgot about my plan and just left the room, sighing sadly. I can't believe that no man will ever want a girl like me. I mean my personality isn't the best and I don't have the curves.

I looked at a mirror. I turned around. I can never be as perfect as them. Man, it hurts.

"What are you doing?" I heard Subaru asking me. I turned around and sighed. I shook my head and began walking away. "Nothing important."
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Ever since that day, I have been buying fashion magazines. I would sit there and cry as I flipped through the pages filled with flawless girls in beautiful clothing.

I also soon turned slightly jealous of Yui. Despite her being flat chested, she was still very pretty  compared to me. I am average. I sighed.

The rational side of me decided to take note of potential hairstyles. After all, I promised her.

"Ooh, pretty dress," Yui said over my shoulder. I yelped slightly and jumped a bit.

We were in the limo. The boys were busy...doing their thing. We soon reached school. I grabbed my bag and hopped out.

I was still reading the magazine. There was a huge crowd in front of us so we had to wait. As I was reading, I can across a picture of girl with a big bust. I clenched my fists, which ended up crumpling the side of the magazine.

"Ehh? Miyako-Chan reads fashion magazines? Ooh. Is that a girl with a big bust?" Reiko suddenly said behind me. She said it loud enough for the boys and Yui to hear. They all looked at me. I blushed and closed the magazine.

"Ooh. Do I see jealousy on your face?" Reiko teased. I looked away and closed my eyes. I folded my arms. "Tch, no. Why would I be jealous of something as small as...that? Puhlease. I have better things to worry about," I tried denying.

Reiko shook her head. "Don't worry. You are still young. Your bust will grow bigger as you age," she patted my back. I felt my cheeks getting hotter. "O-oi, I said I wasn't thinking about tha-" " Denial, denial."