Once a Dog Always a Dog!

Chapter 22

The day after I got Meagan's letter I went straight to the hospital and I took an HIV test of my own. And the funny thing was I wasn't nervous. I was totally at peace because I knew that whatever the results were that I would be all right. But as God would have it, my results were negative. Right after taking my test I took a cab over to my mom's house and I asked her if I could borrow twenty five hundred dollars until I got my next royalty check. And without hesitation or asking why I needed the money, she gave it to me. And what I did was I took the train to New York City's diamond district and I purchased a princess cut diamond ring, which was similar to the ring that I had purchased for Cheyenne years ago. With the ring I hopped on the Long Island Railroad and took it to the Great Neck station and ultimately I ended up at Cheyenne's house. "Who is it?" she asked as she came to the door. "Baby, it's me," I said as I stood in the January cold. "Kha'Darious? It's freezing out there! How did you get here? You should have called me first. What if I wasn't home?" "I knew you would be home," I said as I came in.

"We need to talk," I added. "You okay?" she asked. I didn't know exactly what I was gonna say to Cheyenne but I knew that I was gonna speak from the heart. I told her everything that had happened withKierra, Layla, the white girl at the club, and with Meagan. "Cheyenne, something in me is broken. It's been broke for a long time and it was the reason I did what I did. I've ruined your life and I've ruined our marriage and I've taken away your son," I said as I started crying. "Kha'Darious, stop it," Cheyenne said. "I'm fine, Kha'Darious, and I'm not gonna let you keep saying that you took Derrick away from me because you didn't. Have you made some of the most bonehead decisions that have affected me? Absolutely you have. But you have to forgive yourself for what happened with Derrick and try to move on." "I know, baby, I know," I said and I began crying again. "Cheyenne, I don't have anything. Literally, I don't have nothing but I borrowed twenty five hundred dollars from my mother so I could buy you a ring... ." "Kha'Darious!" "No, please, Cheyenne, just hear me out. This isn't game on my part or anything like that. But Cheyenne, I realized that you have always loved me more than I loved you because everything you ever did for me was at the expense of yourself and everything I ever did was done at your expense.

And everything God ever does, like you, he does it for us but at His expense. And I wanna change, Cheyenne. I wanna do right and I will do right. Like Jesus, God's son, gave his life so we could live, how ironic is it that Derrick, my son, gave his life so that I could live? Cheyenne, I would never dishonor my son's death and spit on his grave by being unfaithful to you again. I promise that. So if you would take me back I'm gonna get on my knees right now and ask you ... Cheyenne, will you marry me again?" She looked at me and smiled and then tears came to her eyes. "Cheyenne, springtime always follows winter. The wintertime in our lives is over. And just like spring we can start over again and rebuild and make things like they were supposed to be." Cheyenne grabbed me and she held me so tight. "Yes, Kha'Darious. Yes! Of course we can get married again. I love you more than you could ever know." Cheyenne and I embraced and kissed and then we made it to our bedroom and we made love to each other like we had never done before.