Beginning. // z.m. au [discontinued]

Chapter 3

Luv, Hold Me Down | Drowners

Dr. Riley was probably one of the best doctors I'd ever seen. She was easily one of my favorites (not that I'd had many), making me feel like she was more of a family friend rather than someone who did routinely check ups on me to see how I was doing. Which should be weird, shouldn't be a thing since she was my doctor after all, but it was true. She made me feel comfortable, had actual conversations with Zayn and I which made it feel like we were right at home instead of me just being a patient.

I laid down on the chair in the middle of the room, my shirt hitched up so that my bare stomach was exposed. The room was fairly chilly inside and the thick gel that Dr. Riley was currently squeezing onto my abdomen didn't help much. "Oh, that's cold," I chuckled, shivering a little once she started to spread the substance across my skin with the transducer (which is learn was called earlier) in her hand.

"This must be so exciting for the both of you," the doctor smiled towards Zayn and I whilst continuing to work. It felt weird knowing that there was an actual human being growing inside of me and that we'd get a tiny glimpse of it pretty soon. It was a little overwhelming but in a good way. Definitely in the best way possible.

"It is," I agreed, turning my head to send Zayn a quick grin. Although I was fairly early into my pregnancy, Zayn was already the best father to our unborn child. He always tried his best, always seemed so genuinely interested in everything that came with this journey, and if that didn't make me love him even more, if that didn't already make him an even greater person than he already was, I'd like to know what would. Because in my eyes, no one could get better than Zayn. No one could even come close.

"The first time around is always the most special, I think. I'm sure your next one will be, too, of course."

That was something I never truly understood and still didn't to this day. It was like one you got things started, people already wanted to know what was next. Once you get married, people start to wonder when kids will come into the picture, and once you finally have that first child, it was like everyone was already planning for a second one without even giving you a chance to breathe. I was one to take time with things, though. Whatever happened happened, there was no need to rush.

"Maybe we should just focus on getting through this one, yeah?" Zayn laughed, and I knew he was thinking the same thing as me.

"Of course," Dr. Riley agreed around a short chuckle. "Ah, here we are," she then announced, reaching over to turn the monitor right next to us so that it was facing Zayn and I. I focused on the screen, noticing a small flickering in the center that had my smile growing wider without me even realizing it. "There's the heartbeat."

"Wow," I muttered underneath my breath. Nothing seemed real at all, but it was. It was very real and it was happening right now.

Zayn's hand found mine then, his fingers slipping in the spaces between mine before giving my hand a slight squeeze.

"You're still very early into your pregnancy so we won't be able to figure much else out for a while, but you're looking really great so far, Jan. Everything's pretty healthy so far."

I nodded happily, still very much captivated by the picture of our tiny baby displayed on the monitor—I just couldn't turn away. It was still very weird, though. I could have the baby resting in my arms at this exact moment and I probably still wouldn't believe they were real. I wasn't sure when is ever feel that way.