Avengers, Loki & Bucky Imagines and Preferences

Bucky - Irrelevant

(For valdez-for-ever who requested a buckyxreader fic based on the song "Irrelevant" by Lauren Aquilina. I just wanted an excuse to write for Bucky. But here you go.)

Her head lay across his lap, his hands tangled in her hair.
"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked, noticing the way he closed his eyes.
"Okay." And he began to tell her.

Let's start at the end.

Steve. His eyes widened with shock, arms by his side.
"Bucky?"

Becoming strangers once again.

"Who the hell is Bucky?"
The pain in Steve's eyes, the confusion written across his face.

Or maybe that's all we ever were

The gunfire, the motorbike, his hand clapped against Steve's back in congratulations.
No.

Do you know how it feels?

Falling, yelling, the cliff beside.

To crave a body made of steel.

The pain. Burning, icy pain. The blood on the snow. The replacement, cold metal against flesh.

To give your all for no return

"I didn't think I had a choice."

Cause I've been running marathons
While you're still standing still

(Y/n). The new reason. The reason to remember, to help. To forgive himself.

And I'd be anything for you
But I'll never fit the bill

Dancing. Both of his hands on her waist but one no longer his.
The replacement.

Cause I'm irrelevant
You'll be fine without me

Steve again. A party. Howard Stark's son, the scientist, the agent, the god, the others.

And it's evident, it shows
And in your excellence

Shield. Golden hair, taller.

I forgot I used to have my own

Bucky smiling. Arm around his shorter friends shoulders.

You won't even notice that I'm gone

You consume my thoughts

"I knew him."

I'm not sure that I'm in yours at all
Your mind is too far gone to see
The worst part of it all

(Y/n)'s smile. Her eyes bright.

Is that I desperately still want
Someone who never wanted me

Cause you've been burning bridges while

The helicarrier. Steve yelling. Crashing into the water.

I've been building homes

Down. Diving down. Arm outstretched.

And I'm only your everything

This is all my fault.

When you feel alone

The cell. The chair. Before they took it away again and the wisps remained.

'Cause I'm irrelevant

"Wipe him."

You'll be fine without me

"The asset."

And it's evident, it shows
And in your excellence

"The world needs you."

I forgot I used to have my own

Lies.

You won't even notice that I'm gone

Are the days that I'll cling to you

Scrubbing off the paint, the red star, gone.

Throw me to the lions and start anew

Drag him to shore. Leave him. That's all you owe him.

And who the hell are you

"Want some milk?"

For the hell you've put me through

Screams. Nightmares. (Y/n). Her hands on his shoulders, though the fear could be glimpsed in her eyes.

But I'm irrelevant

Leaving. I can't hurt her.

"You'll be fine without me"

"Bucky, please. I need you."

And it's evident, it shows

Her tears. Glistening on her beautiful skin.

And in your excellence

Hug me. I won't leave you. I promise.

I forgot I used to have my own

Brush the hair from her eyes.

You won't even notice that I'm...

The breath shared between them before his lips are on hers.

... gone