The Letter (Zayn Malik Fanfiction) [2013 Watty Awards]

Chapter 29

Beverly's POV

I heard a knock on the door. "Come in," I said as I looked at the door.

I was expecting Zayn but Niall's head popped out from behind the door. He walked in closing the door in the process. He sat in front from me. He sighed. "Are you okay?" Niall asked.

"Yeah. Totally," I said.

"Why won't you let any of them race?"

"I just- wait. Them? You don't wanna race?"

"I'm not really into racing.. Especially after what happened just now..."

"Silly... That was the first time that happened ever since I started to race..."

"When did you start?" 

"When I was about 15?"

"That's so young.."

"Yeah.."

"Tell me Bev. What is the actual reason you don't want them to race?"

"It's a long story..."

"I've got time..."

I sighed nodding. "His name was Adam... I was 15 back then.. He was 16.. We were best friends.. We went street racing together.. But then something happened.."

"What happened?"

I remembered all that happened.

~Flashback~

This was my first race and I won. I was so happy! "Adam!" I exclaimed happily as he hugged me.

"Great job Bev! Not bad for a first timer!" Adam replied smiling as we broke away the hug.

The other competitor got out of their car with furious looks, glaring at me. "We demand a rematch," the guy said.

"No. We're done here," Adam said glaring at him.

"We're not bad boy," the guy said.

Adam looked around. "Fine! Rematch! But I'll race you, not her," Adam said standing up glaring at the guy.

I pulled his hand, not wanting him to do so. He knelt down to my eye level. "I won't let anything happen to me. I promise," Adam said smiling as he ruffled my hair. 

He glared at the guy and got into the car I used previously. Little did I know that it was the last time I saw him ever...

~End of Flashback~

"What happened to him?" Niall asked quietly.

"During the race, something went wrong with his engine and his car flipped. The car exploded before he could get out...." I said trying not to cry.

Niall looked away from me. "Is that why you don't want them to race?" Niall asked and I nodded.

"I don't think I can take it if something like that happened again.. Seeing anyone of them being stuck there again, I will just die I guess..." I said quietly.

Niall got up. "I think you should tell them why. After all, they do deserve an explanation," Niall said smiling offering his hand.

I took his hand and he helped me up. We walked out of the room and I went to the living room. The boys and Ella looked up. Ella doesn't know about it too. I guess I didn't really want her to know. Niall smiled at me encouragingly. "The reason I don't want you guys to race is because when I was 15, my best friend died in a crash. The car exploded before he could get out. I don't want any of you to be in that situation at all ever," I said and the boys looked at me.

"Why didn't you tell me Bev?" Ella asked.

"I didn't want you to know what had happened when I first started racing. After all that, Brock took care of me.. I promised Adam not to continue to race but I still did..." I said trailing off looking at the floor.

"Hey look at me," Ella said and I looked up, "It isn't your fault he got into the accident. Someone tampered with the engine. No one expected that to happen. It's not your fault."

"It was my fault.. I knew there was something different with the engine when I was driving it. I just brushed it away thinking that because Adam just changed my engine.... But when it came to his turn, something happened.. Something that should've happened to me... I didn't stop him.." I said as tears ran down my face slowly.

"It was an accident. You can't put all the blame on yourself babe," Zayn said hugging me.

"It was an accident that could be avoided! I didn't tell him about how I felt about the engine. If I had told him, the accident wouldn't have happened!" I exclaimed.

"It isn't you fault babe," Zayn said quietly trying to comfort me.

I just kept silent as tears left my face. Zayn just stood there comforting me. 

It was my fault.. It could have been avoided... I didn't tell him.. I should've told him! I'm sorry Adam.. I'm so sorry...