What I Wish I Could Say....

RANT THINGY

Okay I worry guys. It's part of my anxiety I guess. I worry for every single person I care about. I worry for my internet family. That one day I'll get a text that they're gone that they won't be texting me any more that they've given up and ended it all. I worry to the point it makes me sick. I barely sleep because of it. All I want to do is take them all away from their own little hells and wrap them In my arms and we could watch Disney movies and snuggle and I would know everyone is safe. When I can't talk to a friend...it kills me because I never ever know what's going on anymore and I never know if they're okay! It just freaking kills me. Everyone I love is so far away. I try so hard to have friends near me too. But they all turn on me and hate me in the end. So I have me Internet family and gods of  Egypt I will never ever forget them and never ever lose them. They are what's keeping me here. All it takes is just having one person care. One person to want and work at know the true me. That changed my life forever. I worry for her every single night. For I never know if she's okay or not and all I want to do is hold her and just know she's safe. Ugh I wish I didn't worry so much but I do and if you ever talk to me if you ever get to the point where I care about you more than anyone be happy and let me worry about you because that's how I show my care and love for you is worrying. So please for my lost friends or friends far away that I consider my lost family I worry for you every night so please don't leave me because if one day you never answer the phone if one day I get the message "I'm done I'm sorry I can't live this way anymore goodbye Emmy" I-I don't know if I can handle any more lose. I love you guys okay. Anyone who had ever taken the time to talk to me or read my crap stories or even become my family. I care okay and never ever think I don't!