What I Wish I Could Say....

My Lost Love

I miss you
But I doubt you miss me
No one ever misses me
But I always miss them
I can never forget anyone
But everyone forgets me
I always fall to hard
No one ever falls for me
I love you
I always did
I always will
That's my flaw
I can't let you go
I can't give you up
You're my addiction
One I can't quit
You're my 4 am thoughts
My reason to keep going
My only happiness in this world
And maybe once I was yours?
Without you
I feel numb
No sadness
No anger
No joy
Nothing
Just numbness
I hate to think maybe what I felt wasn't truly there
Did you ever love me?
Was it just a game?
Was I your next victim?
Or did you truly love me?
Did I really make you happy?
Because you made me happy
You made the suicidal girl want to live
You changed my life
And now you're my lost love
The one I fear I will never get back
But I wonder
Will you come and find me again one day?
Am I your lost love?
Or are you just mine...