Broken Souls (AOT/SNK fanfic)

Chapter Eight

Chapter 8

Back at (y/n) condominium unit.

"What was Levi doing here?" I said as she open the door after I knock several times, totally irritated about the fact that the two of them are all alone in her unit for quite a long time.

She give a confuse look at my face. She didn't let me enter yet. She just stand there holding her doorknob, looking up at me with undefined expression. Strange. "what?" I asked, she's starting to get my nerves. She turn around and speak in a low, bored tone.

"come in." she said, leaving me on the door to lock it after I enter.

I remove my shoes and put it on the shoe rack. She continue walking towards the kitchen and I follow her. I got pass through the living room and saw the largest couch's brown cover got unfixed and has wrinkles. Now that's weird, I remembered she said she hate it crumpled.

Nearing the kitchen's door, I smelled the freshly baked chocolate cupcakes oozing out of it. I enter and saw her putting some on a plate straight from the oven.

"hey." I ask, hugging her from the back as she face the kitchen counter. She didn't replied. Odd silence immersed between us. She finished placing the last sweet on the large plate, she place the baking tray on the sink and start to heat the black coffee on the coffee maker. She picked up the plate if cupcakes and was about to turn around but I refuse to let go off the hug from her back.

"let go." she said, still plastered in her bored tone.

"No" I said, eagerly wanted her to tell me whats wrong

She put down the plate back on the counter and start rubbing my hands entangled in her tummy. She draw circles at the back of my hand as she clear her throat to speak. Now I confirmed there is something wrong.

"You said you need to go immediately for work, but your here with Levi, all alone. Can you tell me now what was wrong and why is HE with you that long?" I said, giving the 'HE' a huge amount of emphasis.

She sigh, showing that she's finding it hard to spit out.

"well.." she starts. "I saw you and Petra, holding the hand of each other." She continued, stopping her rubbing circles at my hand. Her tone became weaker and weaker as she finish, but loud enough fore to hear.

I was caught off guard, surprised and ashamed. She saw me holding Petra's hand, and I feel her jealousy doesn't end with that reason.

"Before I explain my self, can you tell me why Levi is here?" I said, hugging her closer to my body. Her hands hold mine lightly like she doesn't interested anymore.

"Since the afternoon we visit the Skyranch, I saw how she look at you, how she blush  and how she act when you're around." she said, removing her hands on mine and put them up on her face, she lowered her head like she was wiping some tears. "I asked Levi to tell me everything, HONESTLY. and.." she continues, her voice starts to break and her voice muffled under her palms.

I grab her shoulders and turn hee to face me. She was crying, underneath her hands was a clear sound of muffled sobs, her shoulders shakes as she try to hold her self, but her heart refuse to conceal her feelings.

"What did he tell you?" I ask, supiriority over my voice. She continue sobbing while she cover her face.

"ah..about..your past..with Petra..EVERYTHING." She said, sniffing between words, emphasizing the 'everything'.

I stand thete dumbfounded. Levi actually tell her about my past with Petra. Fuck you short stuck! You're going to pay for this.

(y/n) escaped from my gasp and remove her hands on her face. She wash her face on the sink and wipe it with the kitchen tissue and her hands with the small towel hangging on fridge handle. She sniff one last time and turn around to face me once again.

"Care to explain me why? Why are you holding her hands PASSIONATELY while having a fight or kinds?" she said, looking down on her sink as she put her right hand on its edge and her left on her waist. I look at her trying to hide the guilt painted in my eyes. I swear it's a luck for me if she believe this lie I am going to tell her, but I think she have already killed me three times i  three different ways in her mind.

She tapped her right foot on the floor, clearly irritated while she wait for me to answer. She loom up straight into my blue ireses, her eyebrows frown in disbelief.

"If you cant answer me then your free to leave my house." She said, trying to hold back her tears. She nearly chocked as she finkahed her statement.

"She.. I mean.. We never saw each other a while and.. And we just.. Catching up --" before I could finish, she cut me off.

"while entangling yout hands with each other?" she said, folding her arms under hrr chest and shifting her weight in her right foot, making her left one do the tap on the floor. Shr look up at me with a strsight face.

Damn, what should I do?! What should I tell her?!

I try my hardest not to loom guilty but I think she doesn't bite my facade. Damn! What happen will happen! No turning back!

"She was the one who holds me first, she told me she missed me." I speak the truth this time.

She stood silent there, as if she was absorbing my spill. I look dowm at her while she look down on my feet.

"You still love Petra?"

Her question shock me from heaf to toe. I don't knkw what to say. She's a great interrogator, she caught me at my weakest spot.

"answer me honestly. HO-NEST-LY." she said, walking close to me as she look up at my tall stature.

"We cant be together!" I said, completely losing my facade.

The next thing she do makr me dumb fot the first time

She punched me, yep. She punched right in the middle of my stomach. I arched forward as i grab my tummy in pain. I dunno if I will cry in pain ot laugh at the fact she just punch me there 'cause she's too short to slap me. Well that's awkward.

"Get out of my house before I call the security!" she screams at my face, holding her phone ready to click the call button. She glare at me angrily, holding her tears at the corner of her eyes.

This is the first time I saw her break down.. And it is a painful scenery. I straightened my self and tried to hold her, but she backstrepped, avoiding my gasp.

"I'm sorry." I said, my voice cracked. I walk pads her and making my way to her door, she followed me at my back keeping the distancr between us. I put on my shoeas and open the door, before I walk away, I turn around to look her breaking emotion at her facr, she look down as she holds the doorframe, weeping soundless.

"I love you. That's the most honest thing I have told you." I said, trying my best to hold the guilt that strongly killing me now. I did more disappointing thing than what she knew, and that makes me more guilty and sorry for her. I knew she love me, but that's not a fair reason to hurt her kind heart.

I was about to hug her but she backed away, hiding herself behind the door while she sneak on the small gap between the door's edge and its frame.

"just.. Leave.." she said, then she close her door completely.

I walk toward the elevator with heavy heart. It feels like every step I take away from (y/n) stab me in the heart, one after another.

I went straight to the parking lot without stopping or looking to anyone or anything and head straight to my car.

I start the engine and step on the gas, zooming out of the parking lot.

I hit the steering wheel several time while I nearly reach the fastest speed my car can make. I turn to the road that will make my way to the Ackerman's bar and resto.

Fuck you Levi. You'll gonna pay for this.