JK Lol

Pretentious.

That's alright.
It's not like I have feelings too.
Have you ever wondered what goes through the bully's mind when they hit a smaller student?
Well, I ponder that much more now seeing as how I'm back in the position of the victim.
She chose her friend over me again.
This is how I see it happening.
"Hey, you know, I miss you. Lets get back together"
And she says.
"Hold on, let me go verify that with my friend."
She has to tell her friend every thing that happens.
Makes no sense.
She acts as though we never had anything.
As if we were never in love.
Maybe we didn't, seeing how she just dropped me like she couldn't care less.
She really pisses me off.
I get headaches every day now. All day.
I stress too much over this girl.
But it's alright.
It'll be alright.
We'll be together in the end.
But with that "friend" in the mix of me and her, we're gonna get nowhere at fucking all.
She's just gonna have doubts whispered in her ear by her "friend".
She's never gonna trust me again with her "friend" telling her everyday to just not talk to me or not to trust my sorry ass.
I don't know.
I don't feel bad anymore.
All I feel is anger.
And depression.
But mostly anger.
Sometimes.
But it makes me so frustrated to know that I can't get it through her head that I fucking lover her.
She's my first love too.
My first kiss.
Hell, she even convinced me to wear shorts in public for the first time in my life.
But she still refuses to believe I love her.
Maybe she does believe it.
Maybe, she doesn't love me and she sees now her chance to escape my warm grasps at the excuse that I betrayed her again.
I didn't.
But she'll never fucking know that.
But that's alright.
Its better she thinks the worst.
So next time, it'll be alot harder to break her and hurt her again.