Finally it's done ! that's it no more classes, no more exams I'm a free teenager, well as free as a teenager can get around here, I've never been so happy to walk out of that exam hall. Although I do have to say it was the longest exam of my life. As happy as i was to be done with Junior year (especially this exam), I still had that empty pit feeling in my stomach, and then it hit me... FML it's summer.
I know, I know summer vacation is something everyone looks forward too but ever since my parents divorce, I hated this time of year...With them always fighting over who I'd spend my birthday with or who got what weeks, it was a never ending war between them. I guess that's just it, it's the never ending story of my parents. No matter how much i wanted to give them the benefit of the doubt , the reality is and always will be that, they can never get their shit together...No, but not this summer i'm finally not giving a flying fuck on what they think or say. I'm tired of always trying to keep the peace in the family...it never works, and besides i'm 16! Why should i even be this stressed out. Especially over something I have no control over....
This summer is my time to be selfish for once, to finally be ME...and to do the things that I WANT! Even if that means sitting on the couch stuffing my face with cookie dough ice cream while watching the vow a thousand times, I will because it's time that i put myself first instead of tip toe-ing around everyone else.
In spirit of my new found "Not Giving a Flying-Fuck Attitude" I'm making a Summer bucket list. The things I want to do not letting other decide for me, when i mean other i mean the two I call my parents.
1) No saying no to parties
2) Do something reckless
3) Travel
4) Be someone else for 24/h
5) Drive through a McDonald's in a plastic pink barbie remote cars (Don't Judge)
6) DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK
Normally I leave the carefree/reckless behavior to my sister but I'm drowning here, I feel like I've been trying to fit myself into the idea of what my Parents want me to be that I'm even more lost now then ever, maybe this will help me discover a little bit about myself that I'm so desperately trying to find. I want to enjoy senior year, but how can I when I have no idea who i am or even want to be? I just need to give myself the chance to find myself and that's exactly what I'm going to do...I'm giving myself that chance. From this day on no more whiny complaining on how i never get to do anything Lexy I'm sick of her and I'm pretty sure all of you are too. So I'm saying good to my year end story and saying hello to the beginning of my new summer nights...
xxLexy
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