Exams, lovely part of the year isn't it ? With cramped late night study sessions, blood shot eyes and bitter tears of utter failure... With most of the student population slowly going on the verge of a mental break down the rest have come to terms with the fact that exams are soul sucking little shits, and end up going for the "YOLO" approach (wow i'm really starting to sound American now)...who wouldn't want to take in all the joys of this wonderful time of year ??
For those who don't know...no it's not being melo-dramatic and yes it really is that horrid, It's the saddest thing watching everyone turn into trolls for the last couple of weeks. Almost losing their last bit of sanity over a test....Is this all i have to look forward to? Year after year, class after class...Does it ever get any better? the answer is no. Lets face it midterms and finals are the soul crushing events in the academic year. No matter how good of a student you are these exams can easily crush the little amount of self confidence you have in yourself. There is no escaping it, no matter who you are....
Me? I'm not exception...I've straight up read for hours at a time to study for these test. Only difference between me and the guy sitting at the table across from me is that his dad , unlike mine, doesn't turn into a COMPLETE SOCIOPATH when it comes to school. No seriously, i've known that guy since i moved to the states and his parents are known as the "Supportive" we're happy with whoever you decide to be parents, rare breed, but i guess he was one of the lucky ones...unfortunately i'm not so lucky as my mother decided to pro-create with the most non-understanding stubborn man in the world. Lucky for me i get the pleasure of calling him dad....
I don't know why i'm even still here, sitting in my room trying to study... it's been 6/7 hours since i last saw the sun or anything other that the four corners of my bedroom for that matter...every so often my sister comes in and makes sure i'm not passed out...Don't get me wrong i love my dad, he does his job well (most of the time)...Regardless I'm tired of all the constant pressure and anxiety he causes with his "I expect perfect scores Lexy! Nothing less..." and "What University will accept you if you don't get the best marks Lexy!" SERIOUSLY THIS IS GOING TO CAUSE ME TO HAVE A BRAIN ANEURYSM AND I'M NOT EVEN A SENIOR YET !
It's the age old tale of how parents need to take an effing chill pill, ughhh I know he does this because he "cares" but it's not helpful at all, if anything it makes me do worse! Dismissing how I'M feeling is something that i've learn to suppress...being the middle child in my family you kind of have to learn to put everyone else's needs and wants ahead of yours, not because you want to but because you have to. My family is a hot mess and i don't want to be another problem to the never ending list. Besides I know that there is so many other family's with bigger issues then mine, but still doesn't mean what i deal with isn't easy...
It's running close to midnight and my brain is almost turned completely to mush, not that it's going to make a difference. On the day of the exam i'm still going to be a zombie...It used to be really hard trying to cram late night study sessions in... that was until I was introduced to coffee, now i'm addicted...it my drug. Since i'm running low on coffee I better crawl out of my bat cave and go make more. I cannot wait t'ill Friday is over, I just hope I survive. If I don't then just know my dad + this exam was the cause of my death...
Goodbye,
Junior Lexy
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