Emison: There's beauty in the beast

decisions

Emily's pov

I've made up my mind, I'm gonna stay in my position of being queen bee I'm sure Alison will get over it sooner or later. Well why should I care If she doesn't get over it, I'm over her right? I'm just gonna Send her a quick message and tell her so she doesn't expect me to stick up for her or anything
To Alison -

I don't want anything to do with you anymore. Forget every good thing I said, I don't like you.

That should do the trick.
I don't know why I got myself involved with Alison
How could I expect myself to love a broken girl while trying to keep up my popularity I wouldn't want to be down graded.
Since I have nothing to do today I may aswell call cece to hang out

*phone call*

Cece: my main bitch how's it going?

Emily: as well as could be i guess. Wanna hang?

Cece: I want details fields, did you get your girl?

Emily: erm no kinda messed up but I'm over her. I'm queen bee she will ruin my reputation

Cece: dammit fields call me when you know where your loyalty stands. Being queen bee isn't more important than being with the one you love.
*phone call over*

Did that seriously just happen? Her out of all people should know Emily Fields does not do love, I have tried and failed love isn't for me.

Alison's pov
*trigger warning?*

I've been laying in bed for the past 2 hours, the day Emily betrayed me replaying over and over again in my head.
I'm not a doll she can't play with me while she's bored and throw me away once she's done, my feelings aren't a game she can't just play with them like it's normal.
Finally I get a text

From Em -

I don't want anything to do with you anymore. Forget every good thing I said, I don't like you.

Well that hurt like hell.
I knew what could make me feel better, who knew how much a small piece of metal could own someone's life.
I picked up the blade and put it to my wrist, my only friend in the darkest hours.
One cut - this is for Emily
Two cuts- this is for being worthless
Three cuts- for thinking someone could ever love you
Four cuts- for being alive

After the fourth cut I lost count of how much I have done. I smiled as I watched the blood drip from my wrist, it was my happy hour. Cutting made me forget about whatever I was feeling for a while that's one thing I loved about.
As I was getting lost in my thoughts a certain blonde barged into my room, Hanna. As soon as she saw my face her whole face expression changed it went from happy to a blank expression.

"ALISON LAUREN DILAURENTIS" she shouted at me her face has gone red with anger

"I'm sorry" I just kept repeating over and over again what has my life become.

Hanna's pov

I just had been hanging out with Aria and spence we planned on having a sleepover with Ali included to take her minds of thing's so I rushed to her house to invite her a text would have been okay but whatever. When I got to to Ali's Jason opened the door, thank god. I'm hoping I don't have to talk to her mum. I was estatic I don't know why it was only a sleepover but I just really want Ali to be happy but when I opened the door my whole fucking face expression changed. Is what I'm seeing really happening I can't believe this I was hoping she would talk to me if she felt the need to harm. I didn't know what to do. I just shouted her full name and she kept repeating 'i'm sorry' over and over again. How could she be so broken?
I just walked up to her and placed her head in my lap.
"Why would you do this to yourself Ali"
"Emily" that's all she replied with you could hear in her voice how broken she was.
How could Emily do this to her? She knew she was broken.
This is one of the main reasons why I hate Emily.

To Emily -

How could you do this to Ali you heartless bitch.

From Emily -

Shutup hefty Hanna. I don't need you giving me lectures

To Emily -

Hefty Hanna? I'd rather be know by that name than to be known as the person  who's nearly fucked every girl in school

For the past hour me and Emily have been texting each other back and forth. Did I ever mention why I hated Emily so much?

It all began in year 8, we are in year 10 now. Me, Aria, Spencer and Emily were the most closets friends ever. We were unbreakable. Well until Emily was offered the throne of being queen  bee, she completely abandoned us. We had been friends since nursery! You don't just leave your friends like that. Ever since she became queen bee she started bullying us she didn't even say sorry, she stopped hanging out with us and for what reason? What happend to the 'best friends for life' ballshit. This is the one thing that kills me to talk about. It's been three years and we're older now I should be over it but I couldn't bare the pain she caused, she was my best friend, the girl who understood me, she stuck up for me when others bullied me and now she has just completely changed. I know what she's like she'll use Ali that's why I don't want Ali getting close to her, look at her already we haven't even know her that long and Emily is already breaking her. That's not even the whole reason why I hate Emily but I don't even want to think about that.