Emison: There's beauty in the beast

wake up already

Emily's pov

It's been a month, a fucking month.

A whole month since Hanna told me Alison was in hospital.

Apparently when she fell to the ground she hit her head too hard

She's laying unconsciously in the stupid white and blue hospital gown and she still manages to take my breath away.

We didn't even get the chance to go on our first date.

I can't help but blame myself, what if I wasn't mean to her that day? Would we be in this current situation if I just told her my feelings from the start?

I ask these questions over and over again in my head every day.

People would have expected me to fall back into old habits but I haven't, I visit Alison in the mornings and then head to school and then come back once schools over with the same old hope that she's woke up but I never hear that news.

"Please wake up" I say just above a whisper letting a tear fall freely.

I only just got her I can't lose her this quick. She can't leave me, she was my sanity.

Hanna's pov

This is it

I breath in and out, this is my first time being here in 3 weeks,back at the hospital. I couldn't just sit here staring at her helplessly she's in a coma and there's nothing I can do about it. My heart breaks at the sight before my eyes, I've never seen Emily so broken before a part of me feels sorry for her.

"Hi Emily" I mumble out "It's 11am I saw that you weren't at school so I walked out, you spend most of your time coming here for Alison and me? I haven't been here but I should be, I was her first proper friend" I add on.

"I will leave you to her talk to her, she won't respond but you never know she might be able to hear you still,I'm sure she'll be happy to hear from you" she croaks out trying to smile abit.

"Hi Alz, I miss you so does the girls even though it may not seem like it. I know I haven't visted in 3 weeks and I'm not about to justify it with a lame excuse. Life sucks right now, honestly nothings the same you was such a big impact in our life and I don't know why but I felt like it was my duty to protect you and I failed you're probably wishing this was Emily saying this right now gosh, it sounds like I'm in love with you but I promise I'm not. You made our circle complete Ali the girls were just about warming up to you and this happened! Oh god please tell me why" I cry out, I can't hold back the tears any longer.

I'm currently being carried out of the room by security apparently I was causing a disruption, I didn't realise I punched a wall until I felt the burning sensation in my left hand.

"What the hell Hanna! I left you in the room with her for ten minutes and you're getting dragged out" Emily laughs out

It was good seeing her laugh it's been so long,even I made a small smile.

"She's strong Han,she will get through it"

"How do you know Emily?" I ask in a slightly pissed tone, I don't want false hope.

"I don't but it helps me sleep at night so I just keep telling myself that" she says patting my back

This moment made me realise how much I miss Emily and our friendship.