Perfect

5

normal POV
1 month later
i saw you today.
i may have been avoiding you
maybe because
i didn't want you to see me
until i was perfect
i didn't want you to see me
when i am still fat
which is silly
because you already know
i am fat
but one small
tiny
part of me
still thinks i'll have a chance
that you'll see me and think

she's nice
or
she's pretty
or even
she's skinny

anyway, i saw you today
and you didn't look at me in
amusement
like you usually did

your face was a
beautiful code
of something i
couldn't read

your eyes met mine
and
you took a small step forward
but then a friend called your name
and you walked away

i turned away and hugged myself
tightly

"you're still so fat" ana whispered
from behind me.
"he won't like you till
you're skinny
for now,
you're still as
worthless as before
why would he want you?"
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