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normal pov
i could see
my reflection
my arms
my legs
my stomach
but
what was fat
and
what was thin?
was protruding bones
and hollow frames
fat?
or was that thin?
i observed the shadowed
gap
between my collarbones
the way the skin
sunk and gaped
around my eyes
i felt my ribs
and felt a large edge
between bone and skin
i only wanted you to love me

waves of exhaustion
rolled over me
tidal waves
in the deep green ocean
i had no energy left
i fell clumsily
onto my bed
like a rag doll
drained of life and
former beauty
i opened my closing eyes
at the world around me
and saw ana
smiling
"i did promise that
i would make you thin"
she said.
of course,
even if she wanted to,
she couldn't help me
ana. anorexia.
she was only in my head
i took one final look at this
cruel,
cold
world
before i gave in to darkness.

it received me like a glove.
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