GenderFluid {Joshler}

three

imagine tyler dying before josh and josh being like "lol guess who's out of the band now."

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By the time I reach my house I'm crying. I text my mom telling her I'm at the park and she doesn't have to pick me up from school.

I slip behind the house and walk a half mile into the woods behind it and climb up a tree.

You may say I'm over reacting, but that boy has been the cause of my torment for years. Making transphobic remarks when I wore a skirt to school. Every gay slur you could think of. Calling me ugly, fat, stupid, and a nobody. But the worse part is he almost never did it himself. He would say,

"Hey! There's the fag, get him." And send his gang to torment me and beat me up.

I don't even know his name, it's probably something stupid like William or Robert.

I sigh leaning back on the tree. Focusing on not falling, instead of everything else.

I tap my fingers on the side of the branch I'm gripping to.

I want to be happy. I don't want to have depression. I don't want to wake up everyday just wanting to sleep. Or to be dead. Or both. I want to do better in school. I want to sleep for 10 hours a night. I want to have pride in being genderfluid, not be scared. I'm tired of living like this.

*crack*

Stupid fuckin asshole interrupting my thoughts, what's good.

I look up. Searching for the source of the sound. I see the boy walk up to the trunk of the tree. Looking for a way to climb it.

"Hey...it's Josh, right?" He says slowly and carefully.

"Go fuck yourself." I say coldly not looking down at him.

"Hey hey here me out." He's one branch up the tree now. I don't say a word.

"I honestly, didn't want to hurt you. Ever." He pauses between phrases, as he is currently climbing up a tree.

"I wanted to fit in. And I went to great lengths to do so. I- oh shit." His foot slips but he stays up, "Woah. Anyways. I hate myself. Every fiber of my being. Not just because of what I did to you, and other people, but because of the way I look, dress, act, and enjoy. It's all blurry." he whispers the last part.

"So, I followed you all the way here, climbed up this stupid tree, just to tell you I'd like to start over." He's sitting on the branch next to me.

"I want a fresh start. I left those other stupid friends and I'm trying again. So alow me to introduce myself." He shifts so he's facing me.

Holding out his hand he says, "Hi, I'm Tyler Joseph."

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lowkey makes a paragraph in this about me. but im really enjoying writing this omgomg. i also added a lil easter egg. THIS WAS SO SHORT I'M GONNA MAKE NEXT CHAPTER LONG.