GenderFluid {Joshler}

seven

please ignore the fact i haven't updated it 2 months i just totally forgot i was writing this :-)

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TYLER'S POV

I wake up from another horrible dream. I look next to me and Josh is sleeping peacefully.

I check the time, 4:30am. Which means my parents are gone. I get up to go to the bathroom and see a sticky note on the bathroom door:

Don't forget your meds Ty
-mom ♡

She's adorable.

I yank off the sticky note and shove it in my pocket. I take my meds and walk back to my room with the intention of sleeping since it's 4am on a Saturday. But I'm greeted by Josh rubbing his eyes and sitting at the edge of the bed.

A welcoming sight.

"Why are you up so early?" I ask him.

"I rolled over and you weren't next to me and I got scared."

"Awe you're too cute." And with this he blushes once more.

"Stooooooooooop."

"Cute little boy." I poke his cheeks.

"Oh wait. Not a boy today. I'm a they. I don't conform around the gender norms. I make Christian moms and uneducated 16 year olds angry with my gender."

"Okay.. non conforming gender it is." I laugh laying down.

"Can you play me something." They ask pointing at the piano.

"I'm not that good." I say sheepishly, rubbing my neck.

"I don't care, play me something."

I sigh and walk over to the piano. I stare at the keys trying to decide what to play. I decide on a song I wrote last year called truce.

"Do you mind if I sing?" I ask quietly.

"No not at all." Josh walks over and sits on top of the piano.

I look up at them, "oh don't mind me." Josh giggles.

I take a deep breath and start the song. Playing the slow and steady begging than I start to sing.

"Now, the night, is coming to an end,
Ooooh

The sun, will rise, and we will try again.
Ooooh

Stay alive, stay alive, for me.
You will die, but now your life, is free,

Take,
Pride,
In what is sure,
To,
Die.

I, will fear, the night again,
Ooooh
I hope, I'm not, my only friend.
Ooooh

Stay alive, stay alive, for me.
You will die, but now your life, is free,

Take,
Pride,
In what is sure,
To,
Die."

I play the last note and look up at Josh. They look like they're about to cry.

I stand up and hug them, getting the feeling they know the message of the song.

"I'm here Tyler." Josh whispers.

"I know."

"Oh and by the way," they pull away and look at me, "that was not bad at all. Why did you say you were bad?"

"I have no confidence."

Josh starts crying and gives me the tightest hug I've ever gotten, making me cry too.

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lol im back and ready for action.