I was in the bathroom looking at the two sticks on the counter. Perrie and Mia were holding my hands starring with me. I had been throwing up for the past two days and had missed my period. I had told Mia and she had gotten Perrie to get pregnancy tests and to come over as soon as possible. The one thing I hated was the fact that if I was pregnant it wouldn't be Louis's kid. We still hadn't gone all the way and the only other time I could have had sex was on the boat. It had been almost five minutes already and the image stared to appear. "I can't look tell me what it is." I closed my eyes and let go of there hands. I heard one of them sigh and hug me. I opened my eyes to see Perrie holding one of the sticks. She held it so I could see and there were two lines. "No no what about the other one!" I almost screamed. "Honey it's the same thing. I'm so sorry. But just trust me Louis will not leave you." She said my one fear out loud and I cringed back. Mia continued to cradle me while we sat on the couch and waited for the boys to get back from there last sound check before leaving. We had agreed that I needed to tell Louis right when he came home to give him time.
Harry was the first to walk in the door and when he saw me he sat down and rubbed my back. "What's the matter?" I could hear Louis screaming in the hallway which caused me to cry even more. All I could whisper was Louis. Harry got the idea and got up to hurry Louis in. A few seconds later Louis came in straight faced. He sat down next to me and I shifted to put my head in his shoulder. "Honey what's the matter?" I could hear the concern in his voice. "Baby I'm pregnant." Everyone else's face lit up ,except for Mia and Perrie's, but that's only because they thought it was Louis's baby. I looked up at Louis's face to see it all wrinkled in frustration. I broke down crying and Louis just kept me cradled in his arms. What shocked me the most is what Louis asked me next. "Can we find out who's the father?" I sat up and stared at everyone. I didn't really want them to know just yet that it wasn't Louis's child. "Louis not now!" Mia had a bewildered look on her face like she couldn't believe he had just said that. I leaned back into his shoulder. "If it's what you want honey?" It came out more like a question. "But you want me to have a kid that isn't yours? Because you know we can't figure that out until the baby is born." I wasn't sure if I wanted a kid right know but I knew I didn't want to have a kid that was a product of rape. He looked down at me and whispered, "I will be the father of this baby no matter who the real father is." Oh my god I love him so much. I sort of lunged at him kissing him. 'That's all I wanted to know that you wouldn't want to leave me." I hugged him. "Baby I would never do that. So do we need to find you a special like baby doctor?" He was so cute when he was clueless. "Sweetheart I really just need food right now then we will find a doctor." I got up and I went to the bathroom to clean up my tear stained face. When I came out everyone was laughing and smiling and that was the moment that I knew I would never have better friends than these.
We were at Olive Garden and I have to say I ate a lot. I ate as much as Niall who by the way isn't dating the girl anymore she cheated on him. "Alli! Hey how's it going?" I turned to see Josh coming towards me. "OMG Josh what's up!" I got up and hugged him. Louis got up and shook his hand but sat back down. "Let me introduce you to everyone!" I loved being with Josh it reminded me of times that were actually good at home. "So this is Perrie and her boyfriend Zayn." Zayn waved while Perrie smiled. "Then there's Harry and his girlfriend Mia." Mia and Harry waved and Josh waved back. "Then there's the forever alone twins." (Those were our nickname for Niall and Liam) "Niall and Liam." Josh leaned into my ear and whispered,"Niall is cute." He always had a thing for blondes. I laughed and whispered,"I could put in a good word for you." The check came and Louis took it. "Okay guys lets go. Nice meeting you Josh." Mia was always the one to take charge. Niall got up right as Josh was behind him reaching for the dishes. Niall's chair hit Josh in the stomach causing him to double over in pain dropping al the dishes. "Holy crap lad are you okay? I'm so sorry!" Niall was bending down picking up dishes and putting them on the table. "Guys you can go get in the car I'm gonna help him here." I could see the grin on Josh's face as he heard he got to spend some time with Niall. "Hey are you sure your okay lad?" was the last thing I heard as we left and got in the SUV. Niall came out ten minutes later and said nothing. He looked around at us realizing we were looking at him. "Oh sorry we got talking and he's a real nice lad we are going to get coffee tomorrow." Everyone nodded and Harry started to drive to my apartment. As soon as I realized were he was going I turned to Louis. "Hey can I spend the night at the hotel with you?" I didn't want to bother Louis but I didn't want be in the apartment anymore. "Oh yeah okay." I could tell Louis was deep in thought and I let him be. "Hey Harry I'm staying at the hotel tonight.Sorry for not saying something sooner." Harry huffed but turned around in the direction of the hotel.
"Hey sleepy head get up today is the doctor appointment." I turned towards the voice searching for the face that went with it. I felt his lips on mine and I smiled . "Okay let me get the appropriate attire on." I heard his laugh but the world was still a blur. I fully came to when I was brushing my teeth I looked in the mirror to find my hair done and my makeup done. I looked amazing I should get ready half asleep more often. I walked into the bedroom and put on shorts and a t-shirt. I smelled breakfast and ran to the little kitchen and saw bacon. I shoveled it down. Louis came in from what I assumed was the boys room and looked at the empty plate then at me. "So did my bacon taste good love?" I smiled sheepishly, "Um can we drive through McDonalds or something I'm still starving?" Louis laughed and through my purse at me. "Sure I'm hungry too."
I finished my McMuffin and watched the road, to be honest I really didn't want to go to the doctor, I have always had this really bad fear of doctors and just doctors offices. We pulled into the parking lot and hopped out. I walked hand I hand with Louis up to the door were I then had to let go. We sat down and waited for our turn to go in. I saw at least two VERY pregnant women come from the back and leave. We finally got a room and were just waiting for the doctor to come in. there was a knock at the door and a very nice looking women came in. "So why are you here today?" She asked as she sat down then looked back up at us. "Well we just found out that she's pregnant yesterday and we need to make sure the baby is all okay and just normal I guess." Louis said while I held on to his hand with a death grip. "So I'll need to see both of yours health history's." I looked to Louis. "Um actually m'am we don't know who the father is." The doctor looked at me with her eyebrows raised. "I'm not slut. I had an incident happen to me a month ago. And I took two pregnancy test and they both came back positive. So I want you to confirm it and tell us what to do." I took a breath and tried to calm down. The truth was I was VERY freaked out. I still hadn't told my mom or brother that I was raped let alone pregnant. I didn't want to tell her and then have her make me live with her again or come down here. I loved living with the boys and Mia. I was pulled back to reality when the doctor started talking again,"Um okay so I'm just gonna do a regular test and we'll make sure the baby is in a stable state." I breathed a sigh of relief. I didn't want the doctor to start asking about what happened to me but she seemed to get the message.
The baby is fine but I'm not. Louis is leaving tomorrow and I'll be all alone with a baby. I don't know what to do but all I know is I am not going on tour being pregnant. Louis is taking me out on our last date tonight but I'm not really in the mood. Thank god Louis only took me to the Ihop far away from the city. We laughed and talked for hours then we went back to my apartment and for the first time I reluctantly had sex. The next morning I cried and cried with Mia. She thankfully was staying with me even though Harry was begging her to go with him. We were at the airport and I couldn't let go of Louis. I kissed him and kissed him. He laughed then whispered," Honey I actually need to go. I'll love you forever and ever no lie." I hugged him and wiped the tears from my face. "I love you too." He turned and walked towards the gate. That's when I saw her. Eleanor. She walked right past me towards the same gate that Louis was going to and I knew she was getting on the same plane as Louis. She had to have planned it because she told him she was supposed to leave a week ago. I ran towards her and pulled her around to face me. She looked startled until she realized it was me then she smirked. I was all up on hormones and had enough of her. I leaned in right next to her face and put on the most deadly face I could. "If you even look let alone think of Louis I will come and find you and just remember he never loved you and he loves me and our baby." I smirked and felt so good I almost skipped away. I turned back to see her standing there gapping at me. I did the most childish thing but I don't regret it at all, I stuck my tongue out at her. I walked back to Mia and the car and hopped in. I will survive the next 8 months and I will live the rest of my life with Louis and our baby.
Sorry for such a long wait I had dance practice every day last week and then my recitals over the weekend and the dressing rooms had no wifi :( but I'm back and ready to write more. I will be leaving in a week and won't be able to upload for a month but will be writing so their will be a flood of chapters when I get back. Until then I will be trying hard to write as much as I can. So um thanks love you bbbyyyeeee.
