neighbour || 5sos [book 2]

one; coward

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Coward.

A person who lacks courage in facing danger, difficulty, opposition, pain, etc.; a timid or easily intimidated person.

Danger that I might go crazy from seeing her beautiful smile.

Difficulty in letting her go, away from me, from my life.

Opposition for watching her get lost in Calum's arms instead of mine.

And the pain, that pain I felt when I saw her cry and I couldn't run and catch her tears, calm her down, tell her it's gonna be okay. Even when it won't.

I am a coward and awful person. I sincerely wished her all the world's happiness that she deserved, but the little voice deep in my soul was quietly praying for her to change her mind. But why would she? Her life wasn't here, her life was in London, with her lucky boyfriend and real family.

But damn, she was my life. And with my life taken away, I didn't know what to do with myself. The pain was just too real and there were days when I felt like dying from thinking about it over and over again. Not physically, more like psychically.

I didn't want to go to see her at the airport. I didn't want to say goodbye, because I didn't want it to end. But I still went, watching from the back. Seeing that gorgeous, it fed me up for few months.

But as time passed, her picture in my mind started fading and taste of her lips on mine was completely gone.

It's ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we've seen coming.

The help came from where I never expected it.

One night, Calum came over. I yelled at him to fuck off and go away, but he smashed the door wide open and pulled me up to my legs by my shirt.

''This isn't Hemmings I know. This isn't you anymore, Luke. And I miss my best friend. Don't let us lose you again you jerk. Do you miss her? Then go fuckin get her.''

He let go of me and I just stared at him with my eyes wide open. ''How did you know-‚''

''Well, maybe I am stupid, but not enough to not see how you were looking at her. And ever since that wench left, you are huge mess.''

''Cal-‚''

''Go get her,'' he repeated and looked somewhere behind me. ''I treated her like a shit and I am sorry. She is awesome girl, Luke. You just have to discover that. She may try to look brave, but she is only human too. I want both of you happy, so go and give her happiness please.''

''Wow. We all started talking like tumblr girls right?''

We both started laughing and he hit me. ‚''You just ruined our bubble of love you blond shit. Now shut up and go pack your things. You are leaving in two days.''

''Wait what? What do you mean?'' *don't tell me you didn't sing that in your head*

''One way ticket do London babe. Bomb house. You know, we weren't sitting on our pretty asses for all these months. Take it as early birthday present and don't screw everything up as it's your habit.''

I guess we all love someone way too fucking much. And that's how I ended up in this messy situation.

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- HELLO EVERYONE. Missed me?

I am so sorry for such a long pause, it's just that since I started going to high school I am fuckin mess and writing was the last thing I wanted to do. But I am back

Well, it's still shitty shit, short and boring as hell (actually that could be fun being at my future home)

Lets see if it gets better *wink wink*

lol no

- Dominika