crumbling under pressure / c.t.h

f o u r

Calum gasps turning as frozen as a icicle.
Calum couldn't believe what he just heard.

He would never want her to do such thing. He would never wish that on anybody else even if he hated them.

"No! Stop! Stop it now!"
Calum spoke sternly.

"Sorry I'm a retard, sorry I'm just another abomination sorry I'm anot-"
Alexandra continued but got cut off.

"STOP!"
Calum screams.

"Listen Alexandra, please stay strong, for your dad. He wouldn't want to see you go so fast..."
Calum explains in comfort.

Alexandra smiles.
She hugs Calum sending a big thank you.

•funeral day•

Alexandra walks up to his grave mourning over it.
They have the whole funeral go on and it finally finished.

Alexandra waited for everybody to leave.
everybody left the cemetery without a word just tears.

Alexandra sat down on her knees.
She prayed to him and spent five more minutes there.

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•2 weeks go by...•

Alexandra was browsing through her YouTube feed as she came across a video with a person she recognized.

Calum?
Alexandra clicks on the link and begun to watch the video.

She thought he looked so cute. Alexandra realized his friend.
He spoke his name as Michael.

They said they wanted to start a band called
"5 seconds of summer."

Alexandra smiled by the video itself.
She decided to go to the cafe to meet up with him maybe.

Alexandra strolls downstairs and saw Nick with his head down shoved into his arms on the kitchen table.

Alexandra frowns and heads out.
She felt bad because he was only 13 and he had to go through a dead father.

•/Alexandra's POV \•

I couldn't even believe that my father is dead.
I just don't understand what I did to deserve this shit.

I just don't understand.
Maybe I should quit.
Quit school.
Quit being a asshole.
Quit playing around.
Quit my life.

I don't even want to see my future. Probably as horrible as now.
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