Imperfect [iKON Hanbin's Fanfic]

Chapter 2

[ Your Pov ]

He was in three of my classes so far and he always sat besides me. I was getting a little annoyed at him. He'll always ask what took me so long at the bathroom. And of course I was doing my puking session.

It was finally the last class of the day. Dance class. My favorite class. I was probably one of her better students since I was always enthusiastic and prepared for anything.

I was stretching with the others when he walked in. Hanbin introduced himself and stood beside me stretching also. I sigh in frustration as the girls in the class giggled about how cute he was.

I admit he was cute. Yes I do like boys not like I'm a lesbian or something it's just I have no time for this lovey dovey thingy.

When the teacher walked in she showed us some steps to a dance and then we copied. That happened for about 30 minutes meaning we had 15 minutes left.

"Now students. I'm assigning you a partner to choreograph a dance for a song of your choice. If I find out that it's the same as the video version on YouTube you will fail this semester. This will be due in two weeks. Now your partners are Amber and Jinhwan , Krystal and Donghyuk , Irene and Chanwoo , Eanna and Hanbin..." she continued on as Hanbin looked around.

He looked surprised but nodded smiling at me. When my teacher finished Hanbin looked over at me.

"So you want to meet up after school today to work on it?" he asked but I shook my head.

" I can't. I have work till 9."

"That's ok. We can meet then. So you want to do it at your house or mine? After work. I can come pick you up."

"My parents aren't home we can do it at mine." I reply as the bell rings and I walk off. Heading towards the door.

"Great I'll pick you up tonight. What cafe do you work at?"

"I work at Grande Cafe . It's about 7 blocks from here."

"What! You walk there? Let me take you now." he said grabbing my hand.

"No. I walk there all the time. Stop." I said shaking his hand off.

"Please. That way I won't get lost."

"Ugh fine." I reply and he leads me over to his silver BMW . Sitting on the passenger side I closed the door behind me.

"So...how old are you?" he asked as he started driving.

"16."

"What?! I'm 19!" he said surprisingly.

"Then why are you still in high school?"

"I got held back a few years." he says as he pulls up to the cafe.

I got out of his car without saying anything and walk into the cafe.

"Sir I'm here!" I said walking behind the counter of the cafe putting on the green apron which was my uniform.

"Ah Eanna. Always a pleasure to see your smile. God your're so skinny. After work you take home a slice of cake and some cherry tomatoes. You got it." he said with a smile walking in from the back.

"Yes sir." I replied with a smile then start working. I worked till around 8:30 when Hanbin showed up waiting for me to finish up.

The owner looked at us suspiciously before telling me I could leave early for my date.

"What! No sir we aren't dating."

"Why not? He is your type and seems to like you. You guys should totally date." he said with a smile before continuing.

"But seriously take off early. Get ready for your date. I'll lock up here. And you." he said pointing at Hanbin. "If you break her heart I'll break your face."

"Uh thank you sir." I say taking off my apron and hanging it up. I walk back to the owner and he hands me a small plate covered by another. I knew it contained the cake and I bowed thanking him.

We then left and got back into the car as I pointed him along each road. We finally got to my one storey house and walked in.

He looked around trying to absorb every little detail he saw. I put the cake in the fridge and turned back to Hanbin. "So what song are we going to do?" I asked.

"I was thinking Sherlock by SHINee. We could do some sort of freestyle." he said and we started planning. We practiced some of the dance and that was when I started getting lightheaded.

I tripped over my own feet. I stumbled and I finally had to call it quits. Sitting on the old beaten sofa I realize a thunderstorm had started. I never really like the thunder but I wasn't going to let Hanbin see that.

"Eanna-ah ,You must be starved. You should eat the cake the owner gave you." he said but I shook my head. No I'm too fat. They will never accept me.

I closed my eyes and tried to calm my stomach as it made flips from lack of nutrients. I never did puke up the tomato this morning. I don't need to eat anything else.

Suddenly out of nowhere a fork was placed into my mouth with a bite of cake on it. Opening my eyes I see Hanbin sitting in front of me trying to feed me.

"You need to eat. You are too skinny." more lies.I need to be perfect. He puts another piece of cake in my mouth and I chew it slowly so he would be happy.

When I swallow he gets another piece and I groan. No more. I can't eat anymore.

"Oppa it's getting late. You should be getting home." I'm calling him oppa since he's much more older than me and I don't wanna sound rude so yeah.

"I can come early tomorrow and give you a ride. Then we can practice in the morning." he said and I smiled nodding. Showing him to the door I say goodbye and shut it.

Running over to the bathroom I shove my finger down my throat and puke up the contents that were almost settled in my stomach. I need to be perfect. I need to be perfect. I need to be perfect.

I kept repeating to myself as I pulled out my razor. This is my savior. He is good. He will save me. He will protect me. He will. He will. I think aloud and pull it gently across my skin near the others.

It slowly started bleeding and I sit there watching.

Your're worthless. You should have never been born. I should have gotten the abortion.

'Why can't you be normal. Why are you so stupid. Can't do anything right. '

My parents voices rang on my ears and I cut another line. And another till they littered most of the skin on my hips and some on my lower stomach. I need to be perfect. I need to be perfect.