Imperfect [iKON Hanbin's Fanfic]

Chapter 4

[ Your Pov ]

"Eanna ? What are these?" Hanbin asked. . He wasn't supposed to find out.

"Um-uh-uh-" I stuttered pulling my legs to my stomach. No. No he can't find out. He can't.

"Eanna. Please let me see?" he said as he pulled me into his lap. I shook my head and put my forehead onto my knees. No. He can't find out. I need to be perfect.

"Please Eanna.Please." he pleaded. He sounded scared and sad. Picking my head up I look into his eyes and see the fear.

He was scared. I don't know why. Slowly I nod and he pulls my legs away from my body and looks at my scars. They were all around my stomach he only knew about those.
Not about my hips and wrist.

"Are there more?" he asked running his hand along each one. I quickly shake my head trying to seem believable but he knew the truth. Taking each of my arms he checked every part of my upper body looking for any kind of cut.

He found the ones on my wrist and continued to search me. He stood me up and unbuttoned my jeans slowly bringing them down to my ankles.

Then he saw them all. every scar. Every cut. I couldn't take it. I backed up to the wall and slide down it hugging my legs to my chest.

He was mad. He would probably hit me like appa did when he's mad. I repeatedly whispered I'm sorry over and over as tears streamed down my face but he just stands there shocked.

"Eanna why? Why would you do this to your beautiful skin?"

"I'm sorry. I'm not perfect. I have to be. Im sorry I'm not perfect. Please. Please don't hit me." I said through tears. He walks over and sits down beside me.

"Why would I hit you? Has anyone hit you before?" he asked but i didn't want to answer. He doesn't need to know. When he puts his arm around my shoulder I panicked and thrashed under his grip.

He was surprised at my sudden action and quickly let go. "Hey it's ok I'm not going to hurt you. I promise. I will never hurt you. Ever." he said and for some reason I believed him.

Slowly he scoots over to my side and wraps his arms around my body making me tense up. Why was he so kind to me. It wasn't right. I don't deserve him.

When he started rocking me back and forth ,I finally stop crying and relax as he hummed me a lullaby.

He then picked me up bridal style and lay me down on my bed and laying beside me as he ran his hand over every each of my scars and cuts. I didn't say anything just let him continue till he kissed my forehead.

"Eanna. You are perfect. To me you are the most beautiful person in the whole world. I don't know why you would do something like this but it hurts me to see you hurt yourself. Please. Is there anything I can do to help?" he asked but I shook my head resting my head against his chest. It was so broad and muscular.

"Then will you promise me next time you try will you come find me first?" I nodded my head and shut my eyes. I was so tired. I didn't mean to upset Hanbin.

But I still need to be perfect.