Dear future self; I really hope you've made it out alive. You spent every waking minute of high school contemplating your own life. The countless nights staying up wishing the pain would end and the nightmares flooding through your eyes at night have made the next days unbearable. I really hope that you never gave up on yourself because you had potential even if you couldn't quite see it for yourself. I dream that you're finally happy; doing something you love surrounding yourself with the ones who love you; making each moment in your life memorable. I really hope you're done giving up on yourself like you do every minute of 2015. I really hope that you've gotten away from your biggest threat; your brother. You let him ruin you and it ruined your mindset. You should be out living worry free because it's your choice whether or not you look at him or be in the same room anymore. I really hope you made it out alive.. Saving others to save yourself..
