I've always wondered what it would be like to truly be able to be the person I want to be. People are always shutting some part of me down and some way and it's the worst. Whether it be social media telling me how I should look or my brother degrading me whenever it all shapes me somehow. Society and boys have taught me I need to cover up and I wouldn't be so vulnerable: and I think that's where they're wrong. Boys regardless of how young they are will take control of you and there's no way to escape the game. I don't always want to play along and lie about what happens but if it saves me from embarrassment then I'll just let it be. I dream of a day where I can be confident and not afraid to show who I truly am. I just want the confidence to like who I like without people criticizing my every move. I just want away from all the nonsense and to be with the person I want to be with. Hiding things from others is what keeps me sane. It's not that I'm fake, it's just people are holding me back. Every move I make is judged and it makes being comfortable with who I am and what I want in life nearly impossible. What's wrong with being confident? Oh yeah, if you're confident you're asking for it.
