Shine My Star

Love

What is love? Who do you love? A best friend, a boyfriend, a family member? How do you know if you're in love? I don't understand the feelings I feel. I can't tell what I'm feeling anymore. I can't tell if I love him or if it's just an idea in my head. All I know is I can't get him off my mind. I don't understand why. I can't sort out what is real and what's a dream. I hope I don't wake up when I'm in his arms. I hope he doesn't reject me. He despises me. I told him everything and he said he didn't care about what was the past, but I saw it in his ed. He judged me as I told him. But he did the sweetest thing. He prayed for me. Do I still love him? I can't tell! I hate that. I want to tell him but he woke just brush me off. I want him so bad! He's why I get up in the morning. He's why I smile. But he doesn't know that. Is that love? If so I want nothing to do with it. When I want to die, he keeps me going. Is that love? If so, I love him more than my life!!