You're Out of His League

Jongin's Story Part I

"Jongin"

"Yes Kyungsoo?" Jongin still had a smile spread across his face.

"May I ask you something... personal?" I hesitantly asked.

"Sure anything"

"Uh, you mentioned earlier about something that had happened to you in Junior High school..." I asked nervously ruffling the back of my hair out of habit.

"Oh that" Jongin laughed awkwardly staring down at the ground. I noticed Jongin feeling a bit awkward about the question and was beginning to question myself whether it was ok to ask him in the first place.

"Sorry I didn't mean to be so direct" I apologised. I didn't want to be rude to Jongin.

"No, no it's ok. It's just that I haven't really spoken to anyone about it" Jongin confessed.

"Don't you have a lot of friends that you can talk to about it though?" I asked curiously.

"This isn't something I would tell my other friends. They wouldn't sympathise with me because none of them have been bullied before. They were the bullies in their junior years so they sit on the opposite so side of the fence to me"

"You were bullied in Junior High?" I was shocked to be hearing this from Jongin of all people.

"Yeah I was" Jongin said his eyes looking down at the ground. "So it'd be stupid to tell my other friends about it"

"Yeah I understand. I never told anyone anything either... except for one person" I felt my heart do a hard thud when I said the last part. This is the wrong time for me to be thinking about Hyunki right now. This is time for me to be listening to Jongin and not worry about me.

"It's good that you had at least one person to talk to"

"Yeah" I felt pity for Jongin. He's right. I had someone to talk to, Jongin had no one. I can't imagine what that would've been like.

"So what happened? Don't mind me for asking, again" I asked. Jongin nodded knowing that he has to explain what had happened for real now. Jongin walked back over to the tree and sat down at the base. I followed Jongin and sat down beside him.

"No it's ok. I've wanted to tell someone about it anyway. It's good to take the weight off your shoulders and talk about it" Jongin confessed still looking at the ground. I could tell that Jongin is feeling a bit uneasy about the topic because his eyes are super glued to the ground. Mind you if I were in the same position I'd be doing the same too.

"It is. If you ever want someone to talk to and you have no one else to go to you can always come to me" I offered. After saying that I felt my cheeks become very red after realising what I just said. I mentally slapped myself in the face. 'Why'd you say that stupid?'

Jongin looked at me and smiled shyly. "Thank you Kyungsoo I really appreciate it".

"Anytime Jongin" I smiled back, trying not to look directly into Jongin's eyes. In case I get too lost in them. 'What am I even thinking today?'

I almost forgot that I'm hanging out with the kingka of school right now. I never would have thought that I'd be sitting here with Jongin in his secret place having this kind of conversation with him. I felt somewhat honoured and special. I enjoyed how open Jongin is being with me.

"Kyungsoo you ah... you really want to know what happened to me in Junior High?" Jongin asked hesitantly. Jongin felt a bit uneasy talking something so personal, especially since he has never told somebody before.

"If you don't want to talk about it it's ok with me. It would help me understand you better that's all, and I am rather curious too" I didn't want to be pushy with asking but I am really curious about what happened.