Two Breaths Walking {Levi x Reader}

"Why am I crying?"

I ran up into my dorm and slammed the door shut. I couldn't bare to see him face to face while he was crying. He looked so sad. I looked at my cracked hands and clenched my fists. What am I doing? A slight tear fell from my eye down to the floor. I covered my face with my hands and sinked down to the floor. I just stood there crouched down behind my door. Not like I have feelings for Levi. I just can't handle other people crying. I'm not even friends with him that much. He barely ever speaks to any of the other cadets, and most people are not interested what so ever in him. I slipped off my boots and got up to take off my harness. I looked at myself in the mirror." I look like a zombie.." I murmured then burst out laughing.

"What the hell am I doing?"

Am I losing my sanity.. What's the meaning of this. I've had enough! I screamed with tears falling down from my tattered face. I held onto my desk then fell down to the ground. It was cold.

"[Y/N]! You okay?! I heard a scream coming from up in the dorms." Said a familiar feminine voice. Hanji barraged in with out asking for entrance. She crouched down to me on the ground.
"This isn't like you, are you alright?" I looked up to Hanji in a blank expression. The latest blood bath expedition has been hard on the rookies like Hanji and I. Almost 70% of everyone on the expedition died. Erwin and Keith promised us some cooling down time so right now we have a week off." Hanji? Why did you join the Military?" She sat down and took a breath." Really I came here for the titans.. But I don't know it I can even trust my own thoughts. Really I think I came here to reunite with Mr. Shortie." Hanji said. Levi? They knew each other? I shouldn't be asking Hanji about his and hers personal life but-
"You knew Levi before The Scouts?" Hanji looked up at me and frowned. I really shouldn't of said that!" Yes, I knew him." She sighed once more." We used to be best friends." Hanji murmured." But then he mysteriously disappeared..." I bite my tough as I was about to speak." You don't have to be hesitant to ask questions!" Hanji said with a slight smile. Hanji grabbed a tissue out of her pocket and put it in my hand." Let's get you cleaned up. It's almost dinner." Hanji winked and smiled as she tugged me off the floor. She brought me to the washroom and I washed my face and fixed my [H/L] [H/C] hair before walking down to the mess hall.

As I was walking out in the hall I looked out the window. Frost has been covering the sides and edges of the window and the pain was all fogged up. It was growing winter. I took a breath. I could see my air fog up. When Hanji and I walked into the mess hall it was probably half empty. It was sad knowing how many people had died. But I still don't know why Levi was crying when I walked in to give him the death record for him to sign. Commander Keith has told me to go around and ask everyone as much information about how 70% of the people on the expedition died. It's currently still a mystery. But Erwin thinks that Levi knows the answer. Ivs never trusted Erwin. I walked over and sat down with Petra, Hanji and Rico. We were kinda a group you could say. We all went through training together.

"Hey [Y/N] you alright? You don't look so well." Asked Rico. Rico was very mature and acted like an older sister towards me. She'd always stand up for what she believed in and was always loyal to the High ups. Defiantly the opposite of what I was.
"Oh hey guys.." I said quietly in a monotone voice. Rico raised an eyebrow." You sure you look sleepy?" I looked around to see if anyone has been paying attention to me but no one was. I had the intent to turn around and look around my shoulder again and someone was staring at me. A dark raven haired boy, levi.

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