Poems

You

10:23pm October 5th 2015; The time that we had together was very short and the end of it was very uncalled for. But the fact that I have heard you say "I want you naked" more times than I've heard "you're beautiful" kind of bugs me. Or that I have skipped classes due to the anxiety attacks and breakdowns over you. Or that my best friend won't go to sleep at night until she knows I'm okay in fear of me killing myself. I am not going to lie I have thought of it quite a few times in the past little while. I know all of these are the side effects of falling for you. & that letting go of you would be the best option in this situation, but I have no clue how as of right now. I fell for you hard and fast, the way your face shapes when you smile, how you look at me before you kiss me, or how you wake up in the night and pull me in closer to you. Or how much energy you have as soon as you wake up, which weirds is me out to be honest. But I all fell for the little things in you that nobody else would have ever realized. & now I sit hear wondering what you are doing or what is going through your mind at this exact moment. & I know I'm going to find myself drunk texting you because you're going to be all that crosses my mind when I am intoxicated even though I will be doing it to try to forget you. You're not going to respond. You never will really. Until I've moved on and then maybe you will see what you left behind and try to come back to me. But I'm not sure if I could do it again.