More than Friends but less than Lovers

Chapter 9

I feel dizzy halos di na ako makahinga sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.
God! Mamamatay na ba ako? I was out. Pero yong tiyan ko parang kinikiliti ako na pupunta sa puso at doon uminit. It felt warm.

“ i think kailangan kung magpacheck up. This is not normal" im talking to myself. Its safe na magsalita mag isa walang makakarinig. My brother is out for some reason. I didnt bother to say goodbye when he went out the door. Im busy with my feelings. Pilit kung iniintindi pero hindi ko talaga maintindihan.

“why my body is acting this way, with that text. Maybe somethings wrong with me. Hindi na ata tama ang reaction nitong katawan ko, if i am a machine kailangan ko ng iparepair.
I read it again.

Alyssa Bully: goodmorning love

The read it again

Alyssa Bully: goodmorning love

I read it over and over again pero yong reaction ko same parin.
"Baka naman nag over react lang ako tapos hindi pala yon para sakin, di kaya wrong send siya? Tama baka wrong send siya".

Me:wrong send ka
Goodmorning pala

I need to move. Kailangan ko ng gawain. Something that will distract me. Umabot lang ako sa ganitong edad naging oa na ang katawan ko. Errr.....

Twit!
Alyssa Bully: it was intented for you.

Ha?sakin? You nga diba? Pero baka di niya ako kilala. Baka akala niya ibang tao ako. Ano daw? Please brain makisama ka. I need to think rationally.

Magrereply ba ako? Ano naman ang irereply ko. D naman siguro kailangan replayan yon noh? Pero may sariling isip ang kamay ko. I found myself typing for a reply.

Me: me? Ahhh okay.

Ano daw ang reply. Naks naman. Nakagulo na systema ko.

Alyssa Bully: kumain ka na love?

Please wag ka namang ganyan. Hindi ko na talaga kaya 'to. Kailangan kung magbakasyon.
Kailangan kung mag isip. Di ko na maitatanggi na may parte na siya sa buhay ko.

Alyssa as being makulit, mapamaraang bata she managed to get a number of my sister. I was trying so hard to keep her unknown but one day she texted my sister asking for my condition. That was the day na nagkatampuhan kami. And i was trying my best to ignore her. Kinagabihan nun okay na kami.  Wala na akong nagawa. She is not unknown anymore. My siblings knows her sa pangalan nga lang. I didnt give any information about her.

My brother being a bully and makulit din always make a way to get an access to my phone. Then he succeeded bwisit na bwisit ako. He's reading our convo in messenger and in text. And i was so pissed because he keeps on teasing about Alyssa as babylove the love of life. Yeah! I called Alyssa babylove and she called me love. What an endearment!
Buking na nga. So i just ignored him. Then out of the blue she asked me.

“ate are you les?"

“what? Where did you get that idea?",

‘you. Your phone. Your textmate"

“thats all? Ganun naman talaga. Shes my friend. Diba nga yong ibang mgkaibigan babe nga ang tawagan eh."

Buti nalang hindi na siya nangulit.

We were watching Basketball that time. Then i teased my brother. “uy.... Inlove", he just smiled at me.
“naku, off ko nalang ang tv di ka naman nanunuod eh" sabi ko nalang. Paano kanina pa siya sa cellphone niya may textmate ata.
He didnt bother to answer me. Hala!