Lost

Chapter Five

~Chapter five~

Song of the chapter: Broken- Lighthouse

"Peyton you have to trust me. I wanted to talk to you. Talking to you was the only thing I wanted to do whole time I was away, but-"

"But what Justin? You moved on? You didn't care enough? Oh wait I got it! You forgot about me!"

I'm probably almost yelling at him, but I can't help it. All this rage has been building up inside if me for the past seven months. Justin stops in his tracks and turns me towards him. I try to keep my eyes from meeting his because if they do I'll break down right in front of him.

"Peyton, how could I ever forget about you? I loved you," he inhales deeply. "Peyton I'm still madly in love with you."

For a moment I stand there, looking straight at Justin. I am completely speechless. I never saw this coming, it's all too shocking for me to handle. With Justin telling me this it makes me wonder if I still have feeling for him too.

I am ready to respond but when I open my mouth to speech I choke on my words in my throat.

"Peyton, don't say anything yet. Please?" Justin takes one hand and lifts my chin and presses his lips to mine. His other hands rests on my waist and pulls me towards him. It shocks me at first but I somehow find myself kissing him back.

Once I am able to wrap my head around what is happening, I push against Justin chest, pushes him away from me. "Justin... I can't do this... I can't trust you again."

I turn my head and look away from him. I take careful breaths and wait for him to respond. I can tell Justin is confused. "Justin-"

"Peyton, I understand you can't do this," he motions between us, indicating what just happened. "I just don't understand why. What did I do that hurt you this badly?"

Surely he cannot be serious right now. Does he not understand that when he left like he did he wrecked me? Honestly I am on the verge of wanting to slap him right now.

"Are you serious Justin?!" I scream at him. "You fucking left for Atlanta without saying goodbye! And damn it I had to find out from your grandparents when I went looking for you after you didn't show up to school one day! And now you show up out of the blue and have the nerve to ask what you did!" I roll my eyes in annoyance and cross my arms over my chest.

I stand there, staring at Justin who is staring back at me gaping with his mouth open and eyes wide. He's acting as if none of this ever happened.

"Oh and here's the best part," I exclaim. "I got to stay in this fucking town and here everyone say how amazing you are. Every night after you left I would go off to God knows where and get either high as fuck or drunk just so I could forget about you for just a few hours."

I feel a rush of anger wash over me as I turn on my heel and storm away from him. I feel his gaze on me as I walk to my car.

"Peyton!" I hear him yell after me.

I quicken pace to get a greater distance between the two of us. "Peyton!" I hear him yell again. This time he is right behind me. He grabs my arm and spins me around to face him. I yank my arm out of his grip.

"Peyton, I didn't say goodbye because..." he licks his lips before continuing. "Because I left you a plane ticket. I left seven actually. I waited for you to come down and visit me. Every month I went to the airport and stood there, waiting-"

"What are you talking about? I never got any fucking tickets!"

"Damn it Peyton just let me finish my fucking sentence! I waited for you everyday. On the last month I realized I forgot to give you the fucking tickets. That's why I came back earlier than I planed."

I stand there in awe. I forgot that whenever Justin and I where together we argued like siblings or married couples or something.

"Seriously?! That's the best lie you could come up with? You had seven months to come up with something better!"

I storm away from him and open the door to my car. Right before I slide inside Justin comes up and presses me against the side of my car kissing me fiercely and passionately. My hands find they're way up to the back of Justin's neck and start pulling on the ends of his hair. Once I realize what I am doing I move my hands down to his chest and push him off me.

"Justin... I-I just can't do this," I say without looking at him.

He takes his hands and cups my face within them. "Peyton, I didn't want to hurt you. Ever."

I bring my hand up to his face and slap him. "And is for hurting me." I slide into my car and start it. Before I pull away I roll down my window to see Justin standing there in shock. "Goodbye Justin."