Lost

Chapter Ten

~Chapter Ten~

Song of the Chapter: The Truth- Jason Aldean

"Talk to me Pey. Please?"

"Remember how my dad left me?" I ask Justin quietly and he nodded. "Well my mom started dating this new guy around the time he left. Whenever he gets drunk and she isn't around he-he hits me," Tears start flowing again. "I tried to tell my mom a couple of times but she yelled at me and c-called me a l-liar. And on top of that I lost my best friend."

Justin pulls me into a hug again and I softly cry against his chest as he tries to comfort me. "You'll never lose Amanda. I can promise you that."

His words only make me cry harder, "I wasn't talking about Amanda. I-I was t-talking about y-you." I look up at him and his gaze meets mine. "I lost you."

"Peyton," Justin takes what seems like an extremely long pause. "Pey, please don't tell me that you think you honestly think you lost me."

"Tell me something then Justin. If I didn't lose you then were where you for the seven months when I was here alone getting abused by my moms boyfriend? If I didn't lose you then why didn't you call me?"

"I really wanted to Pey. I begged Scooter everyday to let me see you or even talk to you. But," another pause, "every time he would say it was bad for my image."

I wait there looking into his eyes. Part of me knows he is telling the truth and that I should trust him again. The other part of me is too afraid to ever trust him again no matter what he says.

"If I ask you something will you be completely honest with me?" Justin nods and takes my hand. "Last week when you said you meant to leave me some plane tickets, did you really leave them or was that a lie?"

"Uh, well, ok I thought about it. But seriously it killed me that I didn't make a drastic move to keep you but I just I couldn't. It was easier for me to leave without saying goodbye than it would have been to say goodbye and watch as your heart broke. I am just so sorry Pey. After I left I thought about the tickets, but by then I thought it would be too late. Please forgive me?"

"You want me to forgive you?" I'm inwardly laughing at this. How can he think I'll forgive him after what he did to me? "Justin you left without saying goodbye and then you never answered my calls or texts-"

"And I have felt extremely guilty about leaving you ever since that day. I never wanted to lose you." My tears start flowing again. Justin cups my face in his hands and lifts my chin as he wipes the stray tears off my cheeks. "And most importantly I still love you. I always will"

"Justin, I-"

"Pey, please just think about giving me another chance. If you want we can even start out as friends again. I just want to be part of your life again."

With that Justin stands up and I follow him to the door. "Bye Peyton." He kisses my forehead and opens the door. He doesn't take more than two steps before I reach out and grab his arm.

"Justin wait. Please stay? I really don't want to be alone," I whisper.

"Are sure I'm the one you want here?" Justin counters unsurely.

"Positive."