Clueless

Chapter 4

Chapter Four

I woke up early. The sun rays where directly at my face. I turned around, looked for my watch and stood up. It was almost 7. I went to take a shower and picked a black blouse, light blue pants and my combat boots.

I got in the shower and started thinking as the hot water ran down my body. I thought about Niall, how there is a few kind, and caring people on this world. Surrounded by liars, cheaters and selfish people. How Drake’s “friends” never showed up at the hospital, after he told them the exact same thing he told me.  It was easy to see if they cared about Drake or not. And how I was there, at the edge of the cannon with him. Even though he cheated on me so many times and he made me suffer more times than he made me feel loved.  But that didn’t matter anymore, all I wanted to do now, was see him alright, recovered.

I got out of the shower and saw my mom making my bed.

“Mommy, you don’t have to do that, and you know it. Good morning” I said kissing her cheek.

“today I’m not going to work, so I’ll clean a little bit the house” the house was not that clean, I mean, there were some clothes on the floor, but nothing not hygienic. “So, how’s Drake been going?”

“what can I tell you, it cheers me up that he hasn’t got any worse, but I would still love it if he just, recovered for once”

“I know god listens to you, keep praying for him. Even though god will do what’s better for him” She kissed my forehead “I made you breakfast” I finished putting my shoes on and went to the kitchen to eat. While we were having breakfast, she told me that grandma was still asleep, because she was flying to Doncaster today; my aunt Lilly needed her to watch her children because the nanny was sick while she was at a wedding.

“I don’t really think she’s sick” I said joking “I bet she cant stand them anymore” I added and smiled

“Come on, they’re not that bad. You at your age were the same, even worse” She said smiling too. I finished eating, picked the dishes and when I was about to wash them my mom told me to go to the hospital, and that she’d wash them.

I got out of the building, the city looked deserted. Only a few cars where passing by. I went to the bus stop, and while I waited for the bus, on my head, I kept repeating that “Hey” coming from Niall and more things he had said. When I arrived to the hospital, I went straight to his room. I guess his mom had talked to him yesterday, due to him behaving better with me.

“Good morning my love” He said as he saw me crossing the door.

“Morning” I said getting closer to him and giving him a soft kiss.

“You look and smell amazing today” He smiled for the last time and that made me feel better.

His mother did what she always did, went to have breakfast and left us two alone. When she came back, she told me that a friend of Drake had come yesterday, Avan. Right after I left. I felt satisfied, knowing that he felt loved not only by me and his mother. Because, he, just like me, didn’t have any siblings, and his father had died two years ago.

“Come here” Drake said stretching his hand to me, I took it and sat next to him, on the couch.

“What’s wrong?” I asked grinning.

“Thank you for everything you do for me. I know I have no other ways to tell you that I love you. More than you think and more than you can imagine. I’m in love with you, I just don’t want you to come anymore. I know I’ve told you this a lot of times. I don’t want you to look at me like this. I know I won’t recover, and I’m not going to get any better. Why don’t you go out, and be a normal girl, have fun, not worrying about her sick boyfriend? You’re living the life of an old woman with her dying husband” He said looking directly in my eyes. Tears started running down my face.

“and if it was me, if I was the one sick, would you do what you're telling me? Just maybe, stand on my shoes. You’d know how important this is to me. Because I’m not here for sympathy, and for anything else. I'm here because I love you. I don’t understand why you want me to leave, and do as if nothing was happening”

“With me or without me. I want you to be happy. And I know that if you stopped coming, it would be easier. I hope you understand me and just, let me die in peace” His words seemed to kill me now, and for me, what he asked for was impossible. But, what If that was the only way for him being calmed?

“Please” he repeated again. I nodded, trying to stop the tears from falling.

“Okay, just promise me, that if something happens, your mother will be the first one to know” The tears kept and kept rolling down, he just caught one, and then just cleaned my whole face with his thumb.

“I promise” He said. He pulled me closer to him and kissed my forehead giving me a hug.

“Just let me spend this day with you, act like if nothing happened. And then I’ll leave, only if you do what I’m asking for” I said crying waiting for his answer.