Mute

i'm like a puzzle

 Bradly had just left the house because he had school for the morning. It took me forever to convince him to leave. I had to tell him I would be okay ten times before he left. Of course he left with a smothering hug and ten kisses on the lips and some all over the face. 

 Now I was walking around the city trying to get a hold of Dr.Holden. I hadn't called him last night or all this morning. He would have to know what was happening with me. He never answered his phone, so I kept myself busy. Hopefully he would come around soon. 

 My phone started ringing loudly and I fumbled to get it out my pocket. "Hello," I answered on the last ring. Hoping he was still on the phone.  

 "Hey, Audrey. Why did you call me ten times? Is everything okay?"

 "I forgot to call you last night. That man in my pictures has turned out to be my father and he's done some bad things to me and I can't deal with the pressure." I was crying small tears, but was evident in my voice. "I'm not sure I can trust my mom and he acts like it hasn't happened. It was, so long ago. I can't remember my dad and I barely remembered that day, but I do remember that."

 "What did he do Audrey?" 

 "He raped me and told me not to tell anyone. He said 'keep it a secret because everyone else would be jealous'. Then the next day he wasn't there. I wasn't there anymore. I couldn't talk because I was scared of what I would say." I was now sobbing and it was hard to talk. "Dr.Holden please come over here, please." 

 "I'm coming Audrey just tell me where you are?"

 "I'm downtown at The Landing." I hung up the phone and started walking around a little more. Searching through the shops and finally going along with my plan before it was all too late. I walked up the top of the stairs in the empty building and I sat there. Contemplating weather to do it or not. Since Bradly left I had been thinking a lot and these thoughts have been horrible. 

 I sat up there for what seemed like fifteen minutes. Trying to understand everything. Why would a father do that to there daughter? Why would he leave after that? Why was I such a failure? I finally stood up and stepped over the railing that protected people from falling. I held on tightly and said my last prayer and thought to myself. 

 "Audrey stop," I looked down and Dr.Holden was there."Don't jump, please don't jump."

 "Why, so I can go back to your stupid sessions? They don't work Nick and they never will. Don't you see I'm messed up in the brain. All I can see is his face and since I found out what he did I can see the whole thing in my head. It's traumatizing and disgusting. I want to kill myself every time I see it. I have no friends. Don't you get it I'm a loser. The smartest person in my grade. No one talks to me and everyone laughs at me like I'm some joke. I'm not a joke. I'm just broken."

 "Audrey if you get down from there you will never have to go to one of my sessions again. We'll get you help and you can stop seeing those things. Those people that weren't your friends, well forget about them. Their loss because they don't know the real you like Bradly, your mom, and I do."

 "My mom doesn't know who I am. She stopped talking to me a long time ago."

 "Audrey if you come down I will give you the help you need."

 "That help will be a psychiatric ward and I don't want to go there. I'd rather die."

 "It won't be Audrey. I'll get you a few session somewhere more affective and you can live a happy life."

 "I don't want another doctor unless it's you, but I don't want a session anywhere." I let one hand go off the railing. "I'm sorry Dr.Holden tell everyone I love them."

 "You tell them yourself because you're not dying." When he finished his sentence I let my other arm go and jumped off. From their everything was blurry and black. I wasn't sure if I was dead or just out. 

A/N

I've decided to just add this because the story is almost done with and I'm just tired of seeing this chapter in my works. I mean it's a really good chapter and it has it's leads and now everything is like put together so here it all is. Anyways I hope you like.