Mute

you always second guess

 I opened my eyes, but closed them again. The light was to bright. I groaned a little and slowly opened my eyes, adjusting to the light. I wasn't sure where I was. All I could remember was everything at The Landing. From the conversation with Dr.Holden and the falling. I quickly sat up. Why was I still alive? I started breathing heavily and looked down at my body. I was covered with bruises and cuts. Some spots were still stained with dry blood. 

 "Your awake," I turned my hand around and saw Dr.Holden. 

 "Is this your house?" He shook his head and I let a relieved sigh. "Why am I not dead?'

 "I caught you and then we ended up falling on the floor. Pretty bad injuries from scratches on the rail and you bruise easily." Dr.Holden started chuckling and came to sit on the edge of the bed. "Your lucky that I caught you. I wasn't letting you go. You don't have to go to anymore sessions. This doesn't have to be told to anyone." I crawled over to Dr.Holden and held onto him tightly, hugging him. "But that bastard is in custody and you have trial in a month." I looked up at Dr.Holden and smiled brightly at him. 

 "Thanks," I hugged him even tighter. "Where do we go from here?"

 "You go home and you sleep. You call your mom and you make a meeting to talk to her. You get over this fear. You never come to a therapy session again because this has only been a fear for you and it is over." Dr.Holden was now looking me in the eyes. Holding both my shoulders and squeezing them. "I want you to live a normal life and have fun. All this is over. You don't have to be scared anymore." I shook my head and let a few tears roll down my cheeks. 

 I was finally going to be able to live a healthy life. I was going to go out and finally meet new friends. Talk to people, go to college, get a job. I was going to be someone finally. I got out of Dr.Holden's grip and got onto my feet. I was going to have to be on my own. 

 I grabbed the few things I had and gave Dr.Holden one last hug and a kiss on the cheek. "I'll miss you Nick," I whispered into his ear and then I left. That part of my life was over and now I had one more thing to do before I went home. I would go see my mom and finally talk to her."

 I was sitting in the kitchen waiting for my mom to get home. I was still taking night shifts and she should be home soon. I was fiddling with my fingers and tapping my foot on chair. This would be the first time in awhile that I was going to actually hold a conversation with my mother. Get to tell her why I was mute for all these years. 

 A few minutes later I heard keys fiddling and the door opening. I took a big breath and my heart started pounding fast. I was nervous and scared of what would happen. I could hear my mothers footsteps and they were getting closer to the kitchen. When she was in sight, she stopped and gaped at me. Her mouth was wider open and tears were spilling out. 

 "I'm so sorry," she said as she ran up to me. She engulfed me in a hug and lifted me of the seat. "I'm such a horrible person and why didn't you tell me?" She pulled away from the hug and squeezed my cheeks. "Why would you keep that away from me? I could have helped you Audrey." I shook my head 'no'. 

 "Mom you couldn't have helped me and you still can't," tears were now spilling. We were both a sobbing mess. "It wasn't your vault and no one could have helped me. No one and that includes you mom." She let go of my cheeks and her head collapsed into my chest. She was a nervous wreck right now. This was exactly what we needed. We didn't need a long sit down that was calm. We needed us to both cry and to collapse on each other. We needed this to bond. 

A/N

Sooo guess what? This is the last chapter, but I'm going to have an epilogue. Anyways I knew from the beginning that I would not have a very satisfying end. I feel it's an okay one because originally this wasn't going to be how it was. Anyways epilogue is coming soon and that is it with this story. I have no idea for a sequel and have no intention on doing one, but I hope you like.