Gone(rizzoli And Isles)

chapter 10

While in rehabilitation, Jane was only allowed visitors on Sundays. Every Sunday Jane had a group of people in and out. Frost, Korsak, her mother and Frankie came every Sunday. Tommy came every other Sunday, but Jane was always most excited to see Maura. Since they had reconciled their friendship, Jane could not wait to see Maura. Jane knew she had deeper feelings for Maura than just friendship, but since the "break-up" and eventual "make-up" Jane knew she had to take baby steps. In fact, Jane was more than likely not going to try to push her relationship with Maura past friendship. God, she was lost without Maura in her life and she could not bear losing her again, so if that means never telling Maura her true feelings, so be it. One thing Jane did know was that her mandatory therapy was going to be interesting.

About a week after she began rehab Korsak and Frost questioned her about what had happened and she told them about the big man and his men, how he said that the heroin they confiscated in the case with the dead rats was his, how she cost him money and making her an addict was his revenge. Korsak and Frost started looking for the "big man" with the help of the drug unit. Jane had talked to her court appointed attorney and all the charges were being dropped since she was involuntarily made to be an addict and this led to her actions, plus she was seeking help to get off of the drugs. The plus was that because the charges were all dropped and the underlying circumstances being as they were, Jane still had her job if she wanted it. That gave her hope.

Jane remained in rehab for about two months before she was released back out into the real world.

On the day she was released from rehab, Maura and Angela came to pick Jane up. As they were loading Jane's bag into the car, Maura spoke, "Jane, I want you to come stay with me at my place for a while." Jane was about to protest when Maura raised her hand and continued, "I know you don't want to, you don't want to be a burden, you don't need a babysitter and probably many other excuses you could come up with to not stay, but I really think, as a doctor and friend, that for a little while you should be around people. Angela will be there as will I and we can help you, if you need someone. After a little while and you get comfortable and we see you are doing ok with your treatment, you can go back to your apartment. Alright?"

Jane really hated being fussed over, and she honestly felt like this was a babysitting job, but she also like the idea of staying with Maura. She would see her everyday and that made Jane feel a little excited. "Ok Maura, I will stay, but you and Ma will not fuss over me. And Ma if you baby me and hound me on a daily basis like I know you are capable of doing, I will load up and go to my apartment. Deal?"

Angela was a little surprised Jane did not argue more before she gave in, but she had a sneaking suspicion she knew why Jane did not throw a "Rizzoli" fit.

They stopped a Jane's apartment to grab some of Jane's clothes, and other items, not to mention some of Jo Friday's things. It had been close to nine months since Jane had been in her apartment. Her mother had obviously been here because it was spotless.

Frankie had been taking care of Jo Friday and Jane realized it had been close to nine months since she had seen the little mongrel. She hoped Jo remembered her.

When they pulled up to Maura's and walked in, immediately Jo Friday ran up to Jane and put her front feet on her. Guess she does remember me. Jane put her bag down and reached down and picked up the dog. She rubbed her head and loved on her then set her down. Jane looked around Maura's house. Nothing had changed. It was hard to believe that it had been nine months since Jane had been around all the things that were a common place in her life. Her family, her apartment, her dog, Maura's, Bass, the precinct.

"I have set up the guest room for you. I have also taken a week off from work so I can help you adjust to being back." Maura said.

"Maur, I told you I do not want to be a burden and you do not have to babysit me. Besides, I know they need you at work."

"I told them if they need me to call and I could come in since I am not leaving town. Don't worry Jane, it is under control. Also, do you have a meeting with Lieutenant Cavenaugh this week?"

"Uh, yeah, tomorrow at 10:00 a.m. He wants to talk to me about going back to work and what I have to do to satisfy everybody that I am ok to be back at work."

Maura realized Jane still looked exhausted. She was still very gaunt with dark circles under her eyes. Jane had gained back about ten pounds, but needed to gain back about twenty more. Hopefully eating Angela's cooking will help with that.

"Are your therapy sessions set up?" Maura asked.

"Yeah, every Tuesday at 9:00 a.m. with Dr. Sabrina Howell. I think as part of my returning to work, she will have to do a drug test every meeting too." Jane responded.

"Alright, enough serious talk," Angela said, "let's get Jane's stuff put up and eat a bite." Janie I made you favorite, gnocchi."

Jane leaned over and placed a kiss on her mother's cheek, "thanks Ma," she said. Jane grabbed her bag and made her way to the guest bedroom.

"Just put your things down Jane, and I will help you put everything up later," Maura said.

"Thanks Maur, for everything your doing to help me, I really appreciate it. I know I have a long road ahead of me, but I think with you and even with Ma, that I can do this. I've got to," Jane said as she started tearing up, "if I don't I will lose everything I love and have worked hard for."

Maura crossed over to Jane and grabbed her up in a hug. Maura had tears coming to her eyes. It hurt Maura to see Jane so vulnerable. The old Jane would about die before she got teary eyed and confessed to something as personal as Jane just confessed to. "Jane, you don't have to thank me," Maura said hugging Jane tightly, "I will do anything I can to help you, I hope you know that. And we will get through this and get you back to the bad-ass Jane Rizzoli that everyone loved."

Jane chuckled at the last comment, but was too caught up in the embrace with Maura to care about much more. God, she could get used to being in Maura's arms. Jane buried her nose closer to Maura's neck to be closer to the soft skin there and to smell her shampoo. Jane started rubbing Maura's back with her left hand.

Maura felt Jane move her head closer to her neck. As soon as Jane did, Maura felt Jane's breath on her neck. Jane had also started rubbing Maura's back with her hands and Maura was realizing that her body was reacting in a way it had not reacted in quite a while. Maura moved her nose closer to Jane's neck to take in a deep breath of the essence of Jane. She also started rubbing her hand on Jane's back. Without noticing it, she let out a soft moan at the feel of Jane's breath on her neck.

Jane felt Maura shift closer to her and then felt her hand rubbing her back. Oh, my God. This feels so good. Did I just hear her moan? I do not want to let her go; in fact I just want to start kissing her neck. Jane snuggled a bit closer to where her lips brushed up against Maura's neck.

Oh, dear God in heaven, Maura thought as Jane's lips grazed her neck. Please let her start kissing and sucking on my neck. This feels so good and so right, Jesus what do I do. She just got out of rehab, she's been through a traumatic event; she's my best friend for God's sake. People do not make out with their best friends. I need to pull back and stop this right now. Maura had realized that her feelings for Jane had grown and that they went beyond friendship. Maura would love to be in a relationship with Jane. She was extremely attracted to Jane and just loved spending time with her. Their brief "break-up" had been torture on Maura. Maura wanted Jane in an intimate way, but she knew that this was not the time to pursue that avenue, yet.

Just as Maura was about to pull away, a sound came from the doorway to the guest room.

"Uhhh, girls, lunch is ready," Angela said sheepishly. She had walked up to tell them lunch was ready and saw the girls in the embrace. Angela stood there for a few seconds, long enough to see and hear how they reacted to each other. She knew they loved each other and she knew it was a love that was deeper than friendship. Angela made up her mind that she now had a new project, getting Jane and Maura together as a couple. She would have to be careful with this mission. She sure did not want to do anything to jeopardize the girls' relationship that they did have. This would be a subtle mission, Angela thought as she smiled to herself.