Gone(rizzoli And Isles)

chapter 13

Angela noticed that things between Jane and Maura seemed to be somewhat different. She couldn't quiet place it, but they seemed to be smiling at each other more and touching each other a little more as they moved around the kitchen. Something may have happened on the "date" to the Common. Angela thought to herself, this may be easier than I thought. Hell I may not even have to get involved which would be great.

"You girls have a good time today?"

"Yeah, Ma. It was great to be out. That was the first time I have been out enjoying the air since before I was taken. I spent six months in a tiny room, then nearly three more in a hospital/rehab setting, so yeah, it was great to get out."

Angela walked over and hugged her daughter. She could not even imagine what all Jane has fought to get back to where she is now. She was so proud of her. "Janie, I am so proud of you," she said with tears welling up in her eyes.

"Ma, don't cry." Jane said as she pulled back to look her mother in the eyes. "I'm ok and I am not going to let anybody break me down." Maura came over to Jane and Angela and put her hand on Jane's back and started rubbing it as Jane talked to her mother. Angela definitely caught the look between the two at that time. Confirmation. Something has transpired between the two, but what. Angela backed up, wiped her eyes and said, "Let's eat."

A few weeks had passed. Jane was going to her mandatory therapy. Maura would take her to her therapy some days, but Jane insisted that everybody start letting her do things on her own, so Jane started taking herself to therapy, she would go for a run by herself, go to the store. In this therapy session, Dr. Howell, asked Jane about her personal life, in particular, her love life. Jane figured at some point this would come up, especially since they met every week. After about the first three, Jane felt like she was running out of things to talk about. She did wish this topic had not come up.

"What about my personal love life?" Jane asked, playing dumb.

"Jane, we have met five times and each meeting is two hours. That's twice as long as most other clients I have and as you know, we talk about everything and your love life is something that is part of you and is important to your over all psychological well-being, so are you seeing anyone? Are you interested in anyone?"

"Doc, I just feel uncomfortable talking about it. I haven't even been able to figure it out myself."

"Well then great, you admitted that there is something you need to figure out, so, out with it. What better place to figure something out than in therapy."

Jane laughed. That was true. "I do have someone that I think I love, in a romantic way, but there are many complications I see if I pursue it."

"Complications exist in every relationship Jane, you should know that. Complications arise in relationships with family and friends. What complications do you feel like would come up if you were to pursue this relationship?"

Jane knew that if she talked about the issues she felt, and if she verbalized her feelings for Maura, then there it would be. It would be real. She and Maura had a great relationship right now and if Jane admitted to wanting more then it could change the great relationship they had now. Damn Jane, this is therapy, talk to your therapist about these fears you dumbass, she thought to herself.

"I am afraid to ruin a great friendship if I pursue the romantic feelings I have, and I would die if I lost the friendship."

"How long have you had romantic feelings for Maura?" Dr. Howell asked.

"How did you know?"

"Jane, for the last five weeks, the one person that you consistently talked about was Maura. And each and every time you spoke about her your face lit up, you body relaxed and you genuinely looked happy. Does not take a genius to figure that out."