Poems and Heartache

Forty two

I'm screaming in frustration
I'm not forgetting my mistakes

I'm collecting scars
I'm losing weight

I'm not smiling as much at home
I'm not giggling 24/7 anymore

I'm crying more often
I'm tearing myself apart

I'm not being enough
I'm not sleeping as much

I'm laughing at pain
I'm becoming empty

I'm not overcoming depression
I'm actually losing