Best Friends Forever...Right? (Harry Styles fanfiction)

chapter 24: saying goodbye

song of the chapter: Goodbye My Lover, James Blunt (it's on the side, listen to it it's beautiful<3)

Lore’s P.O.V.

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The worst type of crying is when your tears build up quickly and fall fast. You’re bent over or crouched trying to suck it in and not make any noise but it hurts too much to hold it in so you let out a yelp and a cry then comes the loss of breath which sucks because not only you’re crying out loud but you think you sound dumb for not breathing too. It’s just a mess.

Saying goodbye has to be one of the hardest things, saddest, most heartbreaking things to do ever.

Harry’s P.O.V.

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“who was it?” Sofie asked. “louis, I have to go back, the management wants to speak to me…” I said. “oh great just great, you know what? You go, we don’t need you. you better start clearing the mess you made.” Alex said. I know…

“OMG GUYS SHE’S ONLINE ON FACEBOOK OMG COME HERE!” we heard Sofie yelling. We ran to her and we saw that Lore posted a new status.

“There was a time when I thought our love would stand the test of time and nothing could come between us. Unfortunately, the years have chipped away at our once perfect relationship and there is nothing left to hold on to. The way things are now, we are no longer a positive influence in each other's life. We just make each other miserable instead of happy, and make life harder rather than easier. It is time to call it quits and go our separate ways. I remember the times I went away, you were my reason, my motive to return. but this time I know I shall never return, although your heart will remain always with me. ”

“and she’s back offline….” Sofie said sadly, after she tried sending her messages. I didn’t know what to think, being happy cause she’s still here or sad cause she doesn’t answer? There’s still so much left to say, so many things that I want to say to her. I love her. I don’t want to lose her but I did, everyone did, and it was my stupid fault. I went to Sofie and I hugged her, she hugged me back. “you can go Harry, don’t worry, she’s stubborn she’ll not come back. I’ll keep trying messaging her even if it’s the last thing I do, and I’ll let you know when something happens..” she said, trying to smile. “okay… but there’s one more thing…I would like to send something to her, she said goodbye and I couldn’t even answer her, so I’m sending her one last message if that’s okay with you?” I first asked her, Alex was gone to get some food for us. “okay I guess it’s fine..” she answered and left the room. I just sat there thinking, it could be my last words to her so what to write? There’s so much to say but nothing really came into my mind so I just started typing.

“I know you said goodbye, but please read this.

I am sorry I failed you. I would move mountains to take away the pain you feel. My heart broke when I hurt you; who I was died that day. I wake up every morning and the impact of what I did to you, the amount of remorse I feel, hits me so hard I can’t breathe. Every day I feel almost crippled with sadness for the hurt that I imagine you are feeling because of me. Not a minute goes by that I don’t think about you. You were my motivator, my support and my love. I appreciate that beyond what I can put into words.

I still can’t fathom not being able share life’s successes and accomplishments with each other. This is the only life that we get to live. It is not something that I can comprehend, to live from today into my grave, without ever seeing you again. You are right the past cannot be changed, but there is no command that it must define the entire future. I can’t help but hope one day the path that you are walking away from me on will lead you back to me and we can start as new people in new lives and leave the past to the foolishness of youth.

My heart is yours and always has been since the moment I told you I loved you. I am sorry that I have not shown it as I feel it, especially in my actions. I’m sorry that I failed you with the ultimate betrayal.

We both were changed by what happened, but I am still the person you fell in love with. I have grown a lot, I have learned a lot. I will move on with my life, but I can’t move on in my heart.  You are the only one I ever wanted.

I love you, I always will.

Goodbye.”

I took my stuff, went outside, hugged Sofie, said goodbye. And before I knew it I was on the train back to England, how sad it may sound to me now, life goes on. Maybe I’m not able to move on, but life does.

and there's one thing important I have to do now, very important. I dialed her number and directly she picked up.

"yes?" I heard her say.

"I'm so sorry."

                                           

Goodbyes are not forever.

Goodbyes are not the end.

They simply mean I'll miss you

Until we meet again!

~Author Unknown

A/N:

hey(:

I was like crying while writing this :( this is not the end! not at all, it's just the end of the sad part of the story(: so don't worry :D btw I know I said I wouldn't update but........

I AM DOING IT ANY WAY ;) I finished studying and I found some time to write(: 

why aren't my exams over yet :( ugh :( but oh well I HAVE MORE THAN 10 000 READS OMG :D 

i can't believe it! I love all of you! any way I hope you liked it, and if you liked it please vote and comment(: 

it's about time to get this story back to happy don't ya think?;) 

bye bye :D

xxxx Lore xxxx