Best Friends Forever...Right? (Harry Styles fanfiction)

Chapter 30: don't let me go

WARNING: NOT EDITED

Recap lore's P.O.V.

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And 7 heads turned around to see me.

*end recap*

Harry's P.O.V.

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"Isn't she just beautiful?" I asked Kate, while smiling to Amelia. She was such a beautiful baby, it was the first moment after lore left me I was truly happy.

Well I kept telling myself that. Atleast I tried to be happy?

I just loved her so much and I don't think anyone will ever understand how broken I am without her. I know I gave up hope, and I should probably move on. But I jus can't. Katie tried hitting on me again though but I didn't let her, I don't love her. Even amelia can't change that.

Then there's that deep thought inside of me, how happy I could have been if only...

If only Amelia wasn't Katie's, I wish it was lore's child. I knew she would be a great mom, the best a child could wish for.

I miss her so much.

"You still miss her?" Katie said, while she sighed. Wait had I said that out loud?! "It's none of your business" I snapped at Katie and I left the room. I couldn't do this, I couldn't be around Katie knowing she is the cause why lore left me. If only she hadnt told her..

I went back to my appartement and decided to do what I did best when I was upset... Writing a song and singing.


"Now you were standing there right in front of me
I hold on, it's harder to breath
All of a sudden these lights are blinding me
I never noticed how bright they would be 

I saw in the corner there is a photograph
No doubt in my mind it's a picture of you
It lies there alone and it's bed broken glass
This bed was never made for two

I'll keep my eyes wide open
I'll keep my arms wide open

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

I promise one day that I'll bring you back a star
I caught one and it burned a hole in my hand oh
Seems like these days I watch you from afar
Just trying to make you understand

I'll keep my eyes wide open yeah

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone
Don't let me
Don't let me go

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

Don't let me
Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of feeling alone

Don't let me
Don't let me go
'Cause I'm tired of sleeping alone" (song is on the side)

I couldn't help it that I was crying at the end, I just needed to know if she was okay. I didn't ask much, I just want to know she's happy. Because I would give anything to make her happy.

She deserves it.

I wrote this song about her, no one knows I wrote it. But I wish she knew, I wish she knew how I really felt and how I could help her if she was feeling depressed or anything! I could help her through it, even though it was my fault. Aren't we supposed to forgive the people we care about for our own happiness?

I knew that everything I did was useless

Crying

Smiling

Singing

Yelling

Writing a song

Trying to move on

It was useless. Do you want to know why?

Because none of this would bring her back.

And that... That's what breaks my heart. I guess being heartbroken is what I'm going through right now. And it hurts, it hurts like hell.

"Harreeehhh, someone's trying to call you! Pick up your phone! Come' on pick it up'!" This was my ringtone, Louis once made it for me. I looked at the caller, Louis.

"HARRY YOU WILL NEVER BELIEVE THIS!" Louis yelled.

And then

Right at that moment

Something called a miracle happened

He said the words I've been waiting weeks on.

The words I never thought I would hear.

It's strange how just 3 words can change your life forever.

It's strange how much of an inpact 3 words can have.

It's strange how 3 words can change your mood from being miserable to being happy in less than one second.

Never give up, miracles do happen.

"Lore is back"

Lore's P.O.V.

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While it felt like time was in slow motion I looked at each of them.

Louis, Zayn, Harry, Niall, Liam, Femke and Alex.

They were all here. Everyone was shocked for a moment, nobody dared to speak. Scared that this moment would dissapear before they knew it was even happening, I could see it in their eyes.

"Come on guys sit! So we can talk a bit!" My grandmom said, while she lead us to the living room, everyone followed her. But nobody showed emotion, we all waited on that one person to speak up. Once we sat down, still nobody spoke. But I could feel everyone staring at me like I'm some random stranger who just entered the house. It's weird to see them like this, maybe it was a mistake after all to come back. Maybe just maybe they were doing fine without me. That's what I wanted? Wasn't it?

I looked straight in Harry's eyes. His eyes met mine and when we both were not saying anything I started checking him out.

He was wearing jeans and a green tshirt with a V-line, he looked so beautiful. I noticed the bags under his eyes, they looked so tired. He was really skinny too, like he didn't eat when I was away. And I couldn't help but feel guilty, was it really my fault he looked like this?

I saw sorrow in his eyes, and guilt and then there was that tiny bit of happiness, which I wasn't sure if I saw it right though. I probably just imagined it.

While I was sitting here there was one thing I already realized... This was messed up.

"You-you're here" harry said, finally someone broke the silence.

I couldn't stand this and I couldn't stay here. So I did what I always did on these situations.

I ran away.

From my problems.

Like always.

I stood up and left the room, made my way upstairs to my bedroom. Once I entered it so many memories, so many feelings hit me.

There were pictures everywhere from me and Harry, from when we were little. I miss that time. I looked at one picture in particular, me on a swing and harry was pushing me way too hard, so I almost fell off. We were both laughing, and it was a real smile. A smile that could light up a whole town.

I remember that day like yesterday.

*flashback, age 8*

"HAZ STOP! You're killing me!" I yelled, I almost fell off the swing. He was pushing me so hard. "No I won't stop" he said and he smirked. "Ass!" I yelled at him. He just chuckled and kept pushing. "Aren't you enjoying it?" He asked and he raised an eyebrow.
"No!!! Now stop!" I said, hes such a pain in the ass.

"Mmm let me think... Nope" he said and he laughed again. "Haz!!!" I yelled in frustration. "Okay okay ill stop... But first you need to say 'Harry is the sexiest boy alive and I love him" his smirk was even bigger now.

"What? Harry! No just stop" And I was pouting, I was so not saying that!

"Okay ill just keep pushing then!" He said. Smiling. "Ugh fine I surrender." I said, "well you know what you need to say for that" and he winked.

"Harryisthesexiestboyaliveandilovehim." I said, really fast and quiet.

"What did you say? I can't heaaar you." He teased. I swear I cant go any higher anymore! I will fall off!

"HARRY IS THE SEXIEST BOY ALIVE AND I LOVE HIM!" I yelled, "now stop!" I added, and he finally stopped.

Right at that moment my mom came outside to check on us. "Omg! Picture moment!" She said, excited. What? Not again. She seriously takes pictures from everything. Everything.

"Smile guys!" She said excited. And we smiled.

*end flashback*

"It's crazy isn't it? How much changed" I heard a low voice saying behind me. I turned around and I saw harry. "Yeah it is." I quietly answered.

"You know, when you left, something broke in me and made me realize something." He said. I knew this was coming, I just couldn't let myself fall for this again. Not again.

"What?" I finally had the courage to ask it.

"I love you so much." He said, and I never heard so many emotion in his voice before. He said it like he meant it. I believed him.

"I know no words can make up for everything that happened, but I know that I love you, I never stopped loving you. I just wanted you to know that." He added.

"I know harry, and you know I love you too, so much, if I didn't love you I wouldn't have left. I left for everyone here, I left for the best." I was crying at this point. And I saw harry walking towards me to hug me, but once he realized what he was doing he stopped.

"I realized another thing, because I love you, I should let you move on. And I will, now I know that you're okay I should go. That's all I asked for, to know if you were okay. Look I never got to say goodbye to you, so I guess this is my goodbye. Thank you for being my friend through all those times. I can't thank you enough. Thank you for all those years, thank you for every amazing time we had together and most of all thank you for loving me. I don't know if I'll ever get you out of my system, not completely. I have this... Feeling ... That you always be there. Here."

And then before I could even answer he left the room, giving me a sad smile. And somehow I knew it was the last one I would ever see from him. It's over. This time it really is.


So many unspoken feelings and thoughts, so many emotions that were hiding.

"Don't waste your time on me, you're already the voice inside my head."

Then something clicked in me. I couldn't just let this happen! Not again, I couldn't just watch how my life was falling apart. I love harry, I love him!

I couldn't let him go.

I ran outside my room, down the stairs, outside the house where harry was walking.

He saw me and I could tell he was confused.

"HARRY! STOP WALKING!" Ofcourse, him being him he kept walking.

"OKAY FINE! JUST LISTEN TO ME!" I yelled and he didn't even bother to react. "WHY ARE WE GIVING UP ON US? Why aren't we fighting for 'us'?" I asked him.


And this time he did stop. "Because, lore, there isn't an 'us' anymore." He said.

"No harry you're wrong." I said I ran to him, and without even thinking I kissed him. First he did nothing at all. But finally after 2 minutes he was kissing me back. It felt so right, I missed this.

"I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did... Of who I am. And most of all I'm scared of walking out of here and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I am with you." I said.

He kissed me harder until we both couldn't breathe anymore.

Right at that moment it started to rain.

I pulled my arms around his neck, hugging him like I would never let him go again.

"No I won't let you go, now you know ive been crazy for you all this time" Harry was quietly singing, quoting my favorite song, Heart On Fire.

"I love you Harry" I said, still holding him.

"I love you too." He answered, and right at that moment, something finally felt right.

A/N
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Hey guys! :D awhhhhh :3 aren't they cute :3 I actually wanted to end this chapter when harry left her room but I didn't want you guys to hate me... So here it is. Now I'm sorry for the long wait, ive been thinking a lot about how I wanted this chapter. I wanted it to be perfect, because even though this is fiction parts of it are taken out of my experiences and is sometimes hard to write for me...

But I hope it's okay(: oh one more Thing. Thank you to everyone who comments. I'm going to start dedicating my chapters to the comment that I liked the most(: if you just comment to say how much my grammar sucks and my storyline... PLEASE leave, I don't need your reads.

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One last thing:
I know my grammar is bad sometimes but to remind you english isn't my first language, so it's hard sometimes. I really try my best and it's even harder when I'm writing on my phone (like now) WHEN MY STORY IS OVER I WILL EDIT AS MUCH AS I CAN PROMISE!(:

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