Consumed

Thanksgiving

The bell rings, signaling lunch, I go down to the cafe to meet Chaz and Niall. When I get there, they are already at our table eating. I'm not hungry so I grab a water and head to the table.

Chaz smiles, then looks at my empty hands, disapproval clear on his face. I've been doing good with not fasting or holding back... And I think I've over come my bad habit, or pushed it to the side, because there is finally something to work forward with. Same with cutting, I haven't cut since I met them, and honestly I feel good. Niall knows how I am, I told him about a month later, I didn't like keeping it from him. I knew I could trust him.

"It's okay, I'm just not hungry." I confirmed with a smile that I hoped would prove to him, that I'm not lying. He huffed and pursed his lips, I looked over at Niall, his rosy cheeks focusing on his plate.

"I just get worried." He mumbled.. Playing with his food. He pierced his broccoli and shoved it into his mouth. I smiled flatly, I didn't want him to worry about it. Niall gave me a warm smile, I know he felt the same, he just doesn't like to talk about it.

"What are you doing for thanksgiving?" I asked Niall, just trying to change the subject. He shrugged. "I might go back to Ireland with my mum and dad to see my grandparents... But I don't know, last time I talked to them was a couple years ago, they got into a fight with my mum and haven't talked to us since about a week ago. I think it's to soon, ya know?" I nodded.

"You can always come to Chaz'es." I offered, Chaz took a sip of my water and nodded.

"I mean we didn't have anything planned, but we could work shit out." He said to Niall, pushing an apple towards me on the table. I hugged, grabbed it, and took a bite. Niall smiled and nodded, showing that he would think about it.

Small talk was made between the boys, I finished Chaz'es Apple and I threw it and his tray away. I went back to the table and grabbed my bag. I kissed Chaz on top of his head and began walking away, not wanting to interrupt their conversation.

"Hey, hey.. Where are you going?" Chaz tugged at my arm to get my attention. I answered him.

"Just the library, I have to finish some homework for our next class." I pointed to the door that lead to the library. He said something to Niall, Niall nodded and started to wheel himself and his tray to garbage, and then to the left wing doors. Chaz got up to stand beside me, and he lead the way to the library.

"Maybe we can ask Zayn and them to come over for thanksgiving..." I offered. He hummed Ina questionable tone, shaking his head.

"I don't know, when they heard Niall's name on the phone, they didn't seem to pleased." He looked down at me, he didn't want to hurt my feelings.

"I don't see why, Niall had never mentioned them... And he tells me everything." I mumbled. Why didn't they like Niall? How could you not like him?

"So your not inviting them?" I said in a tone that, even myself couldn't understand. I was kind of upset that they seemed to not like Niall.

"No, I feel like it's a bad idea." I huffed. I wasn't taking no for an answer. If Harry and them had a problem with my best friend, we would solve it November 26.

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I had completely moved into Chaz'es apartment, my mom didn't even flinch when I told her. She told me I'm always welcomed back, with a cold red lipped smile. And she looked back down at her work. She didn't care, and I was happy, but also hurt. I was hopping for a fight, to prove she cared, but she didn't.