Here and Lost

Chapter 16

I wake up the same as I did this morning, with Spencer hugging me. I untangle our arms to check the time. I grab my phone and it says 5:15. I slept a long time, but I still feel so sick. I slap Spencer on the side of his head to wake him up.
He sits up rubbing his head.
"Well now what do we do?" I ask. I don't even want him here.
"I have an idea" he winks.
"No! No no no, not again. Never again." I say. He's not taking advantage of me.
"It's not what you're thinking, I'll be right back." He walks out my door before I can say anything. I'm scared of what he's getting.
A few minutes later he came back. He has a backpack and out of it he grabs 4 packs of seeds.
"What are we going to do with seeds?" I ask confused.
"Eat them" he smiles.
"Why would we eat them?" Spencer's confusing me I don't know how to react when a random guy tells me to eat seeds.
"There morning glory seeds, you can trip off of them. It's a good trip except you get a little sick before it." He says confidently, he's clearly done this before.
"I've never done drugs" I say my voice is shaking because I can't help being scared.
"It's okay don't be scared it's so much fun. For it to work you need about 250 and there's 125 in a pack so we eat two packs, then eat it with this chocolate, to hide the taste." He hands me a bar of chocolate. He took a bite of chocolate and then dumped about half the pack in his mouth. I did the same, I chew it until I see him swallow. It tastes so bad but the chocolate kind of covers the taste. We finally finish both packs.
"Now I want you to take a shower to calm you down, this doesn't work if you're anxious. While your in the shower take a hit of this." He hands me a blunt. " Just one hit, you don't want the stoned feeling to overcome the trip, have fun!" He laughs and I go to the bathroom. I turn the shower on hot and just sit down in the bath. I'm scared I've never smoked weed, or anything. I take it in my hand and light it. Right after I inhale it I start coughing a lot and immediately put it in the water to put it out. I just sit there and do feel very relaxed.
It's been about 20 minutes and I feel very nauseous but it's probably from the shower. I get out and I'm very dizzy, it's hard to stand. I struggle to get dressed but I do and I walk back to my room.
Spencer says its normal to feel nauseous from the seeds so I try to sweat it off but now I'm getting cramps all over my body. The cramps are focused in my knees and it's very annoying.
About an hour later I noticed everything turned a different color. The walls, the floor, my bed, everything looked very clear and looked like it had a photo filter on it. It was so cool and I felt so happy just looking at everything, it was like I was on another planet. I looked down at my hands and I saw what looked like pink string coming out of my fingers. I try moving it and I can form it into shapes. I notice myself smiling a lot, it hurts if I stop smiling. I look over at Spencer and he's smiling too, he takes my hand and we run outside. We both lay in the grass laughing because the clouds are rainbow and the flowers are more colorful even though I had never known there were flowers here. Everything seems to be growing but shrinking at the same time and I here him telling me "I love you I love you I love you" and I say it back to him because I feel so happy with him right now. I'm just feeling the soil as it changes color and spills out of my hand.
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It's been awhile now and I'm starting to come down, everything still looks HG. I've been looking at my computer screen to help trick my brain that the hallucinogens are just coming from the screen. Spencer's resting his head on me and my body feels weighted down because I'm so tired from running around. Spencer pulls out his bag and takes out sleeping pills, we go to sleep pretty quickly.

My eyelids are heavy when I wake up, everything seems to be pulsing. Spencer did say there would be an after glow. My phone says it's 1:30 and I jump out of bed.
"Melody, come back to bed." Spencer mumbles.
"No I have school, it's Wednesday and I've been missing days for the past week I have to go." I say trying to find cloths to wear.
"No, you can't go like this the seeds have a lasting affect. I can't drive and you're staying." He says sternly.
"Okay.." Not that I wanted to go when I felt like shit but I had to. My body was aching and I couldn't stand so I lay down in the bed. I feel Spencer's arm around my shoulders. He puts a cigarette in his mouth and lights it. This boy seems a lot different than when I met him.
"Want one?"
"No, that's gross" I say, I should tell him not to smoke I don't want my mom to smell it.
He laughs and nods.
"Wasn't that great? It was one of the best trips I've had." He says in a raspy voice.
"Yeah, totally," I mumble.
I reach for my computer to play some music to stop the silence. I play " Jesus Christ" by brand new.
"I love this song" Spencer says popping another cigarette in his mouth.