Lost Memories~||

Less love more hoes.

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Starting this story off with Ray's Life .

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Rayan.







"Bye Rachel." Ray said licking his lips.

The girl smirked and blew a jus at him as she walked away. As soon as she got into her car and drove off, Ray then bursted into laughter at how stupid this girl must have been.

"You need to stop leading her on bruh." Ray's friend Jacob says.

Rayan was the kind of guy in town that you knew of but you were too afraid to speak to. Always scared he would say something rude and blunt. Which would be a perfect and correct guess. Ever since Nicole broke up with him and his mother died of brain cancer 3 years ago, his whole personality changed. Everybody knew not to bring up his past on how nice and smart he was. He figures his blunt personality can cover up the pain he's feeling inside but honestly, it doesn't. Everyone sees that wall that he builds to protect himself from the pain he never wanted to take the time to deal with. When those two tragedies happened, he just drunk the sorrow away. Or he'd smoke. Do any drug he could just to make him forget. But as soon as he was sober again, the pain came back stronger than ever. Ray never wanted to just cry and let it out. He'd rather drink so the memories would drown in alcohol, and of course forgetfulness.



He needed someone to tell him that there's a better way to move on.



If he knew what Nicole was going through he'd break down in sobs.

If he knew that his dear mother was watching him push forward to his painful death of being OD, he would break down .

But they weren't there to tell him that.





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But don't get it wrong, Ray prayed every night about his mother, and Nicole.



He always hoped that Nicole would come back to him. Although, he thought that she had been living a perfect life with Chresanto in some other state. He honestly assumed that she would never want Him once she noticed how many opportunities Chres could give her. He didn't have all the money in the world, Chres was sort of wealthy.

But, he tried to think positive.



It didn't really work...





Ray kneeled down in front of his bed closing his eyes, trying to think of what he really wanted to say.



What he really felt.



"Momma, I swear I love you, I'll do better." He says.

"Nicole ... Please, I miss you. "



He couldn't help but admit to himself, he needed her .

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