If you were a girl

Misunderstand me

That morning was like every other, except for the fact that Melody and everybody in the house gave off strange looks in my direction everytime they walked pass me.

No matter how many times I asked everyone just smiled and shook me off with a casual "Me? Oh no, it's nothing" as if they all knew something I wasn't aware of.

There were many things that I hated; one of them, being uninformed.
It was... stressful. My brow twitched more than twice in frustration, but inconveniently that only made their stares deeper and their smiles more noticeable.

Myabe I was exaggerating...? Just stop giggling! I could no longer stall in the kitchen were they all seemed to be amused by some twisted private joke. "Gotta go." I stood and someone mused with my words while my sister insisted for the hundredth time, "To pick up somebody?"

I sighed, so for the hundredth time I responded, "Yes.." they all almost burst in giggles. Even John suppressed a smile! What's so funny!?

Nearly stomping out the door like a small child I fought the urge to ask in this pointless moment.
Just ignore them..

The car seats were cool, the morning was still cooler. Just as I settled in I made the car purr to life. Checking the clock, 6:37 I still had time to spare.
By the time I got to his house I still had two minutes.

I parked closer to the entrance so I wouldn't block the car in the garage. By the looks of it, the car belonged to Sousuke's mom. There was some movement in a window on the second floor but I couldn't be sure it was him.

Making myself useful I turned the music a bit higher, it marked 7 small bars around a circle on the screen. I hardly ever listened to music any louder than three or four bars. Just a weird habit I guess. Music wasn't a must in my personal list of survival.
ONE OK ROCK sung The Beginning softly in the back round. I never had a problem with japanese rock, actually it was very original.

I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing. It had slowed down since this morning but I had the feeling something about me was different. Not the superficial me everyone saw but the internal me; the part of me conformed by my internal organs.

Was I coming down with something? But, I didn't feel ill. If I'm not sick... then what's wrong?

I did know recently my pulse was off as well as my body temperature. But that combination usually has other complications that can help indicate what illness is the one causing those symptoms. But there were no other symptoms.

Am I dying? Did think so, if I were dying I would feel like shit right now. So maybe... I didn't even know what caused my pulse and temperature to rise.

Am I exaggerating!? No. I must be delirious!

I tried to calm myself. Probably I was just getting used to the air pressure here.... is the air pressure even different here from back home!?
I think I've gone mad! My eyes snapped open by the shock. But I was no longer alone. Sousuke was frozen outside the car looking at me wide eyed.

He slowly opened the door and sat, "Are you.. feeling o.k.?" There it is again! My pulse became uneven. "I.. I don't know." Sousuke jumped and touched my forehead pulling me to him. I tensed and he fixed his forehead over mine moving his hair from the way with his free hand.