Hidden Secrets #Watty2015

16. Heartbreaks

6 Months later

Three months into our relationship we were going strong. Until I figured it wasn't going to work out between us. Zayn was pretty upset, he went into some kind of depression. I wish I hadn't done this to him but I had to. He promised me he would visit he didn't, he lied to me he was staying close by because he had been staying in Bradford. Everything was so confusing. Lastly long distance relationship doesn't work at all.

Lills and I got adopted by the same family. Since am turning 18 next month. I needed to find someone to adopt me. It's going to be hard leaving Lills behind, so that's why we have made an agreement to state; once am 18, I can become Lilly's guardian. Which am over the moon about.

Lilly didn't take Zayn's and I breakup well, she didn't talk to me for days and I couldn't reason with her. Good thing Harry is good with her and he explained it all. She came back to me crying saying she misses him and I'd be a liar to say if I didn't. I haven't even deleted our pictures from Instagram and neither has he. We still love each other. We'd talk now and then but try not too furlong it.

'Did you pack my swimming costume Rosie?' Lilly asked whilst I was packing the remainder of our stuff away, while her eyes were roaming and watching me.

'Lills we are moving to London not Hawaii. But of course I'll pack your costume for when we go on holidays' and I couldn't see her much more happier than she ever was.

Our adoptive parents were friendly, both Stella and Stanley were amazing with us. They never fight and if they did Stanley would make sure Stella wins in the end. I always admired their relationship. Stella couldn't conceive children and thought it was a brilliant idea to adopt. Few months on after adopting us she falls pregnant and I couldn't be happier.
She will make the perfect mother. She is my real idol. She was there for me when Zayn broke up with me. I remember she would sleep with me and Stanley used to tease us saying 'his wife is gay'.

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'What are we watching?' I said after seating my self on the couch.

'Stella's choice today, you know what that means!' Stanley put his arm around me and I looked nodding. It meant she would take forever.

'Hey honey, am sorry I haven't helped you pack at all. How's it going?' Stella said looking like she was going to give up.

'It's ok. Nearly there. Need to start on Lilly's packing' Stella came and sat on the other side of me and took my hand in hers.

'We are going to miss you. It's like you're our very own beautiful daughter. Promise us you'll visit during your holidays at least!' Stanley said smiling down at me.

'Of course am gonna miss you crazy bunch too' I said smiling, I put my arm round them both. Even if I didn't have any parents or family, they were genuinely like my own. I couldn't be more happier. It was times like these they made me forget about Zayn.

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Zayns PoV

I was sitting in the kitchen, staring down at the photo of Rose and I, I didn't realise I was letting a few tears slip. Until Doniya came from behind; 'is my brother crying?' I chuckled wiping my tears.

'No am just tired' I said trying to break a smile.

'Why don't you just call her?' My eyes widened, why should I be the one to call her. She's the one who decided to break up with me. I excused myself off the table. 'Zayn you can't hide from the past forever you know..'

I sat down on my bed in anger. I was tired of people telling me to call her. Trust me I did, I wanted to talk things through. She's eighteen in a month and ever since we were going out, I'd been planning to make it special for her. I took my phone out of my pocket and her picture came on my screen,, I remember the very day we took this picture. It was a week of us dating and she was sitting on my lap whilst my lips were on her shoulder, looking upto the camera. I caught her biting her lip which I swiftly turned her around which soon turned out to be a make out session.

I got to admit, half of it was my fault too, I should have said something to stop her from doing something so insane. I lied to her and Harry told me not too. Here I was living with my sister considering no adoption papers were taken place. Why didn't i tell her?

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Flashback

I was sitting on my bed, looking up at my ceiling; my plain boring old ceiling. Don had gone out with a friends, she asked me to come. but all in honesty i didn't wanna mess with her kind. My thoughts interrupted beside me, when my laptop rang beside me. My frown, turned into a brave smile, because i knew my baby was calling me.

"Hey gorg-" but my smile turned into a frown when i suddenly realised Rose was not happy.

"I can't do this Zayn" i felt my heart break and shatter into a million pieces.

"No - NO - no... What are you on about baby? We've had it all planned out.. I prom-" She held her hand out to stop me..

"Thats the thing Zayn you've made too many promises and you broke them too. I don't know if we are destined to be with each other Zayn. You are spending too much with that girl, Doniya... are you... you know cheating on me?"

"what no.. you don't understand Rose.."

"i though relationships were all about trusting each other, where do our trusts lay?" i couldn't see her like this, but if i told her about Don, then i'll have to be reavealing all my other secrets.. "Do you know i have my answer, Good-bye Zayn, it was nice knowing you"

and then that was it, everything turned blank, my heart, my soul and my feelings...